Well, here I am again. You're wonderful! I like the way you color me. Never find a color for Crazy lol. I would not like it. yes I would. I like'd  to know how crazy you think I am.  Tell  me at my spot on google sometimes.lol.I want to be the good kind, but is there one of thoes? See me tomorrow please, I'll tell you.LOL.  One of my friends ask me who was I in love with, after reading last weeks blog.  Did I say it then? I don"t think so. You Think I'm going to say it now  don't you?  So much for that.  Thank you for taking the time to read what I write.  Writing about what I'm writing about is one of my passions.  I truly love all the children on this planet.  I really desire to touch them ALL.  Maybe one of these days.  I do not ever intend to grow old, and die looking and acting my age.I reay don't do a lot to accomplish that, I should do more, and I will.  God The Creator, Blessed me with perfect genes and chromosomes, just for me. I don" care if you din"t believe you don't believe that. You know what? It is true.  I thank Him everyday.  I'm  thanking Him now.  You have what you say. Say so.  There it is it is yours. You see, "but I am not you."  You have your own private stock, Never envy what someone else has.  What God gave you is  unique, Precious, Beautiful, Expressive Timely.  You are on time, required and needed to keep the  earth, stay on track on its way around the sun.  With you this balance would have never continued and the earth would cause cataclysmic violence in the world of the planets.  You don't believe that either.  That is not good, because it is true.  You were created on purpoes. With fore thought and Perfect intentions.  There is not a copy of you any where. On earth, in the earth or in the heavens.  Ask the scientist who develope such madness. and study anatomy.  Cloning never really pleased them. there was always a missing something. Now what was that? The person for real , the thing for real.  What ever, for real.  You are important. You matter. You are the person that makes the world go around.  That will be so until the end of time.  Even after you cease to be here.  The image of you will remain, to come  again.  That isas  far as I can develope that thought.  I really don't want know  to more.  I know more about it than most people do because I want to.  So I do.  You are here in my thought world now, becouse I needed to draw you in to let you know every child born on the planet has a right to be here. Because God said YES>  Who are we to say and act as if they do not belong.  We do it everyday by ignoring them, and their needs.  Their greastest need ,to be LOVED.  When you love someone you give them you. ALL of YOU.   Now you keep your wits about you, but you give all to see that every need is met in that person.  That will and can happen for each of us, if we yield to  the way things  were designed.  No, thank God we had nothing to do with  the design.  But we have every responsibility to respond  to each person asan  equal,and favorite.  Now what can YOU DO?  The planet will not be a safe place  to live, if evil persist and life becomes a credit card or a chip.  I asked the question before do you have your ticket, your spacious home amoung the planets?  I would be curious to know, how you designed your space.  Oh yes the earth will exist, there will be people here.  But your safey will not be guaranteed.  You will totally be in the hands of evil.  We are on our way right there.  The srtongest pepole on this earth are not the rich and famous.  How be it , there are more rich and unknowns than famous.  You can't do a thing about that either.  But you can, think about what you can do.  You can, and you have the power to change to world,NOW.  Put the pen to the paper how ever you are most comfortable writing . Make a plan.  Not of escape, as many are doing, but for  survival, not just for you but for as many as you can help make this a better place to live in,on what ever.  How can you help a child who thinks and have been told you jut ugly, you stink, you dumb, you'r stupid. you an't ...  How many times have you heard these words, but someon was there to help you pick up the pieces?  Some have no one.  They can't find a soul to help them and they are lost and dying empty.  Never knowing what it was like to hear someone for  real say I love, just because you are you.  Keep on thinking, keep on writing, keep on hoping, that one day, you'll Do It. Dreams do come true. I know, I'm dreaming Now, and this is FOR REAL.  i SURE DO lOVE YOU.  Lower case i Capital Y, That's  what  IT IS ALL ABOUT(**)

Well I'm about to be tired. I completed a lot of house work today got ready and attended a secular consert,(open air), Great music. I attended one last night and one tonight. A first for me, for all time. I smiled ,laughed, yelled, clapped and daced ,at my seat.LOL  I might  add with my pastor and his lady friend. (my 1st child). I had a wonderful time, a little out of the box. I heard a song by India Arie,not long ago, I went wild , an old song, but my first time to hear it. By buddy laughed at me. The title ,'Ready For Love.'  I've really not ever questioned if I were ready. I just thought Iam.  Of course that has been so long ago.  She stated ,that was her conversation with God . Mine to. Because He needs to help get me ready for real.  Oh God  the pain of being in love...  I almost forgot, but I was so young then.  I' have to write a book about being me one of these days.  I've seen some days, and learned from each one of them.  Now how are you? Ready for love? You got Brown skin? Just kidding. I'll answer for you. You are with me, you are blessed, crazy and filled to the brim with charm. YES!  I like that. But I Am Me, I want you to be , I need you to YOU.  Can't do without you. My husband would always tell me "stick with me baby."  I did.  Now  stick with me.  Where you given the privilege of choosing the color of you skin, your culture,your ethos grouping? Were you in command of your economic standing,and social background?  I wasn't. Nor were you. You had nothing to do with it.  That was chosen for you.  Now, what do you do when someone you know  is not where you are in life?  Call them names say they are stupid, dummd and can"t learn,  Lazy and no good because they have not been taught as you were?   How many of these things could you smile about and give a positive answer to? Don't answer that yet.  I worked with people who were professional educators, and everytime they got a chance to get together they talked someones child down.  Prefereably at lunch.  I ate alone  most of the time, or in a full cafeteria.  I never ran students down, they, most of them were already there.  I was not lonely, I knew I was going home.  My safe place to be, where I taught our childern to love everybody, no matter what. They did, I have had everybody in my house. They left, not the same as they entered,and always come back.  No matter where they live they all come back here, in their thirties and fourties.  My former students still find their way to my house they know they are welcomed, and loved.   Can you say the same thing? I hope so.  I, with all my heart  hope you hear what I am trying to tell you.  We need to stop exepecting what we have not demonstrated and what we have not taught.  Enough is enough.  Think of how you, just you can change the world you live in, one step at at a time.I tell you it will cost you nothing.  We  never missed a meal because we  feed someone elses child.  I never tired, of seeing their bright faces, blended with ours. I was never causious about telling them, you are musty, go wash, there is the bathroom ,you know where the towels are. Wash your hands before you eat. Sit down , shut up and listen. Wash your shoes. Put on clean under wear. Wash it the night before you go to bed. Don't marry a crazy person you will likly have crazy children. I said all of that and more to many of them and to all of my students. A child is a child. They are very sensitive, very bendible, impressionable.  You do know that Right?  That is why some people treat them any kind of way.  They want some of them to think you are inferior to me. The evil one is a lier!  I am superior to no one, I am inferior to God Almighty alone.  No created being has the right to dominate me.  I will never give anyone that power.  My mind is fearless and my heart is fixed, on the absolute good of ALL MEN! I will never think less of who God created me to be, for me or for you. I love who God created in you.  Not me but you .We'er all the same ,but yet so very different. You know what, He created us just that way,Diverse, Wonderful, Fruitful, Tastful, BEAUTIFUL.  You are beautiful.  I don't see ugly . I see change,one of a kind ,expressive, character, flow -  What do you see?  Color me faithful, color me true, color me, not you.  Until I meet you here again.  I  sure ~  do~   love ~  YOU(**)

Same place, same station. Its a Wonderful day!  I hope you have enjoyed it.  I am so excited about what is about to happen in my life. what is it?  I really don't know.  However something is happening, for the good.  I hope all is well with you. That makes for easy reading.  Relax, I'm still the same writer, who still can not type.  One of these I'll do it differently.  Some day.  Now here goes.  What is a Slave?  A person who is owned by another person or persons.  A servent, a druge.  Usually counted as nothing, dispensable.  Got money, get you another or some more.  There is a lot on the line here.  And in the end day day will pay off.  Where  do we stand in the scheme of things?  I can tell you where I stand. I view All humans as indispensable.  All creaters born human' are as God Himself.  I don't care about  the circumstance of a persons birth, there needs to be,and there is a means to care for that individual, until they can care for themselves.  I've ststed this before, we tend to look the other way when things are not going well for others.  The very young suffer most of of all.  No matter what country they live in.  The young suffer, and no body seams to care.  What  I've observed  is usually, the people who desert them are the people who have  somehow made it,thruogh giftedness, and more abuse, either ignore,and/or stoop to the same garnishment of hurt  and pain on what  and who they  see ,they have been.  A lot of words to say " misery likes compamy." These people usually know exactly what they are doing.  Very few do not.  I hear so much about children who are straving, right here in the greatest nation in the world.  Resources, on recourses.  No body caring enough to care for some one in the proper way.  You give things to the various charities and they either hord them for themselves of sale them for self gain.  Oh yes it is done.  Usually the people who work for thoes places are poor, and needly, they steal.  There are people who have more than enough and the hord,(steal).  I've seen it, I was shocked and amaized. I observed them going around, asking what size do you wear?  We just got new suit in.  I've seen the floors in rooms just full of things, beautiful things, the workers, of them the professionals(degreed), go in and pick and choose.  I never cease to be amaized at some of the things people do.  I at at a place in my life where I could only observe. Now, I'm going to tell you watch where you give you sustance to.  You know sometimes its best if you are ther to personall give them yourself.  The people who they are intended for never touch them, they never see them.  You wonder why so much pain?  Our people still inflict so much pain on the helpless ones.  The helpless become insightful and fill to the brim with anger.  No one really ever listens to them. Some many killings are caused because of abuse.  If someone is constantly abusing you you would want to think a way to cause the to cease and desist also.  Men and women why of means why don't you take the time, real time,(. not just a photo opt). Go and observe what they are doing with the money you contribute. Really trace your money.  Since that happened , now I know where to give my money and my goods I give away on monthly basis. I'm telling you ,you have no excuse to send it and you never appear.  They don't need to know you are coming. Just Go! Our youngsters are so beat down.  They are being raised by individuals who have never been prented themselves. I've said this befor I'm saying it again.  My Geand-mother uesed to always say  "if you want something done rightdo it your self."  She was right, until I leared how to do it right.  Time can be your enemy or your friend.  Never limit what you can do to help someone else.  Most assuredly  not the youth.  Time is of the essence. We live in a fast  trask society.  What was right just last year will not work now. where have you been lately? Whave you been doing with your time?  Taking care of you. Well you say I don't have time,or Idon't have the money.  Time is money. Money time. look at it both ways.  Some of just etting fat, sitting down look at tv or read books.  Yea, yea you know what goes on but what are you,YOU doing about it? Not a ... thing.  Why?  Because your church just sent a donation to the red cross. So did mine. But I must touch the Youth. We have an adopt a youth in our church ,and what I asked the members to do is have that person shadow you.  This is how we learn. We learn by application and observence.  How can the youth apply what they have not seen demonsteated, except violence and hell interchangeably.  Soon  I will bring my 2 adoptees to my home, for an over night stay. Do I know them that well/ No. But I do know them. I know their parents. Trein parents know me.  I do know how to take risks. I do stay prayed up. I will never stop believe.in the idea that there  is a little good in us all.  Of course there been times I wonder why I take the time to do a thing.  My experince last fall taugth me a great lesson about people.  All kinds of people.  I thought I had met them all until I saw for myself just how low the human race can go. We make slaves of ourselves. We cast rocks at our own lives everytime we ignore the demise of another person. We enslave our good intention and cast peals to the hogs.  I know some of you wanted me to discuss sex again, but slavery in all forms envolve sex.  The baby is here. Now what do we do about  keeping ourselves alive for another generation?  The child is is you. The child is me.  Who fathered it and who gave birth to this someone wants to have and to hold?  We All did.  We all are responsible for happens to another little part of God amoung us. Blue ,purple, indigo, pink, orange,what ever. Cute ,beautiful, handicapped, weak. None of them as ugly as the thought of abandonment. Think  with me, What can you do to to stop the slavery of our children?  There is something.  We are all unique and varied. We have all been children, all of us have suffered some unkind act as as a child we did not deserve. So are we going to continue it?  Never look at a child as a child of color, You just demoted yourself to a frog. Did you choose which one you were born to be?  Let me stop right there. If you did not get it this time I'll do better next time. In the meantime. Keep the fire burning and the logs turning,for we want to light your fire!(**)

Late, but I'm back and still love the thought of you. I hope all of you are well and achieveing your best and highest goal. S- t- r- e- a- c- h ,get even more. I am well. My youngest son and wife came over cooked for me, I ate way too much. I still feel it. So I'm good.  I'm excited about life and living to the full.  I know there is help on the way, now we plan to Win!  I don't like loosing, but living has taught me sometimes it is healthy to lose.  I am learning how to adjust to losing.  But I hate sharing, and somethings I will not share.  Those thing I part with and convince myself, I didn't lose, I let it go.  I'll never stop trying to save lost and dying people. Never!  Young people are my choice and chief aim when it comes to reaching out.  Oh now make no mistake I love all the ages from 0 to 121 years of age. If there is a way to reach out I will find that way and with only a touch, secure my plea of rescue.There is a professor in  Wichita Kansas on the campus of WSU. who completed a study on Ending  Modern Day Slavery. Her name is Karen Countryman-Roswan.  She states :the most important thing to realize is that these youth are victums and survivors- not criminals."  Her study was done on youth from the age of 12-22.  Very good study I may add. It was exhilarating to find someone who agreedwith me about the forms of slavery.  This information was released last month.(May).  We must step up to the plate.  I have even considered returning back to the work place. Still thinking and moving at the same pace.  Let us continue our last conversation. I let you hanging, on purpose. Lol.  You see I needed you to come think with me some more. On loving. Right? Right. Adam was taught to Love by Master  Of Love Himself. God. Adam transfered all of that to the Eve while she was inside him.  When God made her she already knew how to respond to what he needed before he asked .  Sister Mother had it all in her.  She was and did complete  Adam.  The woman is the completion of the man.  For  any one to think other wise generates confusion, hurt, and grueling dismay.  I personally  know people who are homosexual.  Some of my best acquaintances. I love them much.  They are not happy.  They always find somethint to fight about. And do.  We are all just about the same way in some families.  Their fights are different and very sad.  I pray for them always. Some of the most brillent minds get cought up in the deciete of sexualism, not love but sex.  They do love, but I 've noticed it being with great intricacy.  The relationships are complicated and complex.  Here is my tak on this matter.
The male and the female are complete.  The one was made for the other from out of the other.  Their bodies were constructed in completely and diversely exceptional.  From top to bottom.  Unless at birth, as babies are born without brains,lungs and other parts inside out or missing, so goes the genitalia. Missing parts or too many parts.
Some people just can't over come the differenes. They choose what they want to be, from some kind of influence.  Many born perfect, but entrapment keeps them bound to perversion.  Little children, the little ponds of sexual crises, and many never recover from the lack of love in the relationships they were forced into.  What do we do about it we love them all the more. We touch them and reach out to them with open ended love and understanding.  Some many can be loved back to wholeness, if the feeling s are true and untainted by our opinions and mistreatment.  Young males if taugnt early that sagging pants really started in prision to let the culture there know the symbol was  "ready for the taking ,"come and get it.  It didn't start with gangs,but that is where it ended up.  That is another thing.  There have always been gangs.  Gangs for different causes.  All kinds of causes.  David, yes the great King David,  had the badest gang ever. They were called the "Mighty Men."  They were mighty!  Those gangs were men or youth who formed unions together. Friendships that bind and heal.  Each sex has that power to heal each other. So the ladies call theirs clubs,and mens have gangs or lodges,etc.  We hang together for purpose, what ever the purpose, those people can define that purpose.  I've heard both sexual explaination on how they feel higher sex drives with same sex, than opposite sex.  I don't know a thing about it.  However I do know ther were two people in the garden and they were male and female.  That is the perfect union.  If you feel other wise and practise other wise, be fore warned I just stated a truth.  I have no control over any ones sex life or any other controls. I write what I know and say what I  know to be true.  Yes, I hope you come to know the truth someday and practice it.  Number one it can keep you healthy for the duration  of you life. I  desire that most of all.  Now this conversation is and has been about out youth.  I've set a tone for continued  conversation. Get ready, the girl is thinking-- The sex part will be in and out, because that is a huge problem in the young world.  How much did you contribute? Yes I'll ask myself the same question. Until we meet again, allow me to bring a smile on that face(**)

There you are, so glad you could meet with me again. I'm at a new beginning point. As of June 1, 2013, I walk through a new door. It is strange and wonderful. When you do it you will know what I'm talking about. I'm Free. I feel you your inquiary, so let us et started. However, you are here so I know you are well, that pleases me.  On our last meeting I ended by really issueing you a challenge.  All of this conversation is about the Youth of the world. This is what it takes to let you know it did not start with you, and I tell you, it will not end with you.  The most important thing is is you hold a most important piece of the puzzle. A ' Now piece!'  Now , we live, what are we going to do about the whole damn thing?  Blunt and to the point!  By now you know I do not play.  This to me is very serious business.  Before I leak all the way into that heavy mode, let me cotinue our last look in at Love.  I stated before that men and women are afraid to reach out to one another.  A better pharseology would be each other.  You see people either want to forget the woman was stored in the man or most people are ignorant to the fact.  Really, some could care less.  That is why this atrociousevil , Homosexuality. It is evil in intention to bring the most Powerful being to Nothing.  Now that really makes me sad.  If cursing would help, I would right here.  Understanding is what is needed.  I understand what happened.  As I stated I'm sad it happened, so sad.  You see you can not love from the outside, love is on the inside of a person.  Don't you know that is why so mamy young people are hooked on SEX.  They need Love.  Most time you'er  deflated because you've been so hurt looking for Love in all the wrong places.  You're worn out,thinking about the task of looking inside your self.  Yes yourself.  What is in there? Who is in there?  A lot of you if you're honest, know there are too many stowaways  inside of you.  So much so you locke the passages to your mind and throwaway the key.  Thus we live in a world  where love,real love only exist in a very few.  Let me enlighten you.  Just read to look, think,learn.  God created everything.  He knew what He had created, He also knew what the Man would choose.  Oh yes, He KNEW!  You  A Helper.  Some one to help him meet ,or fulfill his desire. His quest. Himself.  WE ALL DESIRE the samethings.  Not at some point, at all points.  We look for, reach for, thirst for,long for LOVE.  Well you say, you already said God walked with  Adam every day inthe cool of the evening, he was with God.  No I did not say that. The Holy Bible said that, I repeated it :)   I did, and they did.  They had RELATIONSHIP!  That same relationship the first Man and the first Woman had.  Deep intmate Relationship.  There is nothing on earth as it is.  You really don't need to touch for that, when its real.  If you've never experienced it I'm sorry. I have.  The relationship between   MEN is so beautiful.  there is almost an indescrible uninting of to like beings in total concert.  Its like a ballet, mass on mass. Do you get it?  Without touching.  I've see it in my  our home.  My sons, strong and intetional lovers.  Pure as pure gets.  I taught them to love.  I taught them to use the inward residence  to insure great satisisfaction.  Not by saying it by demonstrating it.  You practice LOVE, in showing LOVE. Don't be Scare, do it.  Live it. I love loving.  It's my gift to you.  If I can't share it I move on.  What is in me  can not and will be desimated, by curality.  That is what evil did to Man. Perverted the most Beautiful Gift from God.  God HIMSELF, LOVE.  Now, go back.  Eve was in Adam. God removed her, and presented her to the Man.  On First Sight he wanted her.  Who was she, was she a she at first?  She was the Man, with the utrus. Woman. She was a female from beginning.  Out of the Man came himself, in the form of a woman.  Inside out. Flip it out sided in.  Love happens inside.  Sex is to bring competion and expression to a union of the same desire.  If used for any other purpose it is neil and void.  This is what I say.  You can quote me.  I said it is beautiful when men love each other it is as equally beautiful for women.   I taught my daughter how to love,just that way.  She was my true friend.  She still is.  My sons my darlings.  Three loins and a tigress.  Though and loving. I can teach that. Can you try?  You see, it happened once  it should happen all the time. Ladies we were wrought in love. When God removed that portion from Adam He placed it in us. The Heart of God.  The water, the wind, the force of God lies in us.  Yes, in us to share,enough to care to care enough to share.  There  is such resiliency in us ladies, we get down but we know how to come back.  We must never  give into evil and forget who we are and we can and must do to bring back balance to the human race.  MEN, we can do nothing with out you.  Right now that is where it stands.  We are not moving because you are not in PLACE!  I don't care what race and background you are, we need to come together and pull our
youngsters out of Hells kitchen.  They are eating the hellishness of stirfries while we are searching for a pillow to scream our next cry of ecstasy.(your next :) . I am out of that loop so far. I do this.  Are you thinking with me?  OR, are you just reading to get material for your next book or article?  What ever, Think with me.  The world is not lost, as long as we can find our way in it.  With Gods Help, let's do it for the millions of children we lost each and every day to evil. Yes? Think about - Until next time...