Introducing: I AM Ministries

I back! Well that took a while. Well just as other writers do  I took some down time. But at the end of every week  you would come to mind. Boy how you would come to mind. Now I know I did the wrong thing for not writing, there were so many things I longed to say and I think I said them all to the wrong audience. I'll have to watch that. Its not a good thing. My emotions have been going crazy. I must learn to reface them with a positive profile. VChange my thinking.  Vacate the storm in me until Mr right comes again. Sometimes I feel, I had my chance. I did, big time. When it ended I declared it would never happen again. Surface though it may, there is a void. Enough about me. I know how to put me on the back burner down low.  The last time we talked I gave you some history and background about my experience as a young woman in her 20's.  It was real. It is a hard transitional period. A young person can make all these edge roads and get treated as if they've done nothing at all, because, they've been told you're just getting your feet wet. All lies. They are wet totheir shoulders. I think about Steve Jobs, a young man, committed to forging his way to the top in spite of what people had to say. He made it. He did not get to really enjoy it. He died too young. Why do people do things like that? Cause thers to drive themselves into the early death syndrom. (Others). My key board will not correct when i blog for some reason. so I rewrote the word > I'm, sorry. I do not want to erase everything every time. He was a classic example of what I am saying. Jealous,envious people, continue to destroy Gods intentions for good. I say thisbto appeal to your good reasoning. Some of you are in position right now tomake or break another persons denisty. Will it be a positive thing you do or a destructive and disastrous flip of fate?  So many times we forget the power we have in our hands to do. Do what ever it is we do. If more thought were put into play, who knows Steve Jobs would still be alive and well and able to enjoy what he perfected, all all the capital it garnered.  viewed the work of an engineer, today, total genius! He needs to be encouraged. I tried to do just that. You don't always need to know the persons vitals to say that is wonderful or you need to go on and develope that project. I see you have an outstanding vision. Why is that so hard? Then here is the clincher allow them to do it! Help in every way! First see their vision with them. exploer methods of doing it better inform them, introduce then to the correct people. Not someone out to still the persons vision ond own it. That happens too much. It happened in our etnic background too much! The telephone, for an example, Bell? ding ding dong.NO! I mention things such as these because i know someone out there is reading what I write and can help.  For some reason I know you will. Thereis even someone who needs help, who is stressd to the max and knows not how to ask for Help! Young and gifted, tried and ignored, because you are who you Are. If there is one, Please do not die before your time. There is help available. There is someone you can go to and ask for a hand up. Not to say, you need a thing, but everyone of us needs someone. That someone special.  You see readers they really don't know what the problem is. They spend money to make money and buy pleasure to satify, and satisfaction never comes. No one ever really shared the up and down patr of Who they Are.(part). Their accomplishments get tossed aside and they become lost in their own dreams, and forget the things them tick. It seems no one really cares. And desease and diaster become real in their lives until its too late. (Steve Jobs). We reall don't need any more of that kind of waste. I hope you agree and find the nearest person I just describe and help them. I wish  I could help. If I knew some one as that. Let us really learn to look at people as oue Heavenly Father does. Stop pushing things up under the rug when it comes to people. Our most express and Most delicate Gift of all PEOPLE!  Until next time, remember I sure do love you. Yhank you for taking the time to read what I have to say.(Thank). You are most important to me, believe me(**)

Thought I wound't come back didn't you? you should have known better.  If you are a writer you know how we are.  The are down times, or you could call it lag time. We just hang out in our little spots on this planet. and think about it. For me its think and pray about it. That is exactly what I was committed to do.  If you ever need a friend its when you'er away. I'm a friend to an away friend. That friend had my full attention. I'm back. I hope all of you are well. it feels as if you are, maybe 2 or maybe 3, with a little something something. You're going to be wonderful,for real. On our last journey we closed out our discussions on the very young all the way to the teens. I tell you I can never close them comletely out, there is where evil lurks to the extreme! So look for it, every now and then.  Tonignt we I will begin my discussion on the age group between 20 and 35. The most often stut - out ones.  In many cases the stut down ones. I experienced it. I stated before I was married at the age of 18. Really a fresh 18. birthday in October, married in June of the next year. Sort of in the middle. I encountered all kinds of negtive vibrations. too many. one, I married the most popular minister in our area. He was the sought after one. all kinds of ways. any how, I grew up in this little place. sort of a boom town. Ponca City, Ok. Hum,so long ago.I'll never for get it. The community felt I was too young for the responsibility I had. The day I married I became a pastors wife. Not just his wife, but a person who was supose to be looked up to, respected, and all of that. I was thought to b too young. I had completed a year of college. I tell you I was sharp ready for the next event. In stead, those members tried to cancel my person. I never took down. When they came at me one way I would swich to a different channel. I am thankful that my heavenly Father guided me and I listened and over came that period in my life. It continued. at another church where my husband pastored. I was in my 20's. I was determined to stand and stand ,I did. I've always possessed leadedship qualities. I knew it. It was a daily exercise in my life. My husband needed me to be who I was. I suppored him. Ipoured myself into him. I became his best friend, his dependable buddy, his advocate,and his main squeez. I intended to stay that that way. With the help of the Lord I did, until the day he died. I was his help meet. I met every demon he didn"t have time for. I made the time to pray and stand up for what he believed, for what we inconcert believed. I was a fighter. hr knew it, Istill am. I said all of that not to brag about who I am, but to say, that is what it takes. People who succeed in life, are fighters in life for the live of them. I've watched our society through the years demean the wisdom of its young. It is so strong.  Because they are young, so they thing, young adults can't or don't know how to make right decisions. That is not the truth! It is a trick by the evil one to slow the forward progress of Man. The lord of this planet! The keepers of the earth. The dressers of the vineyard, MAN!  I promised myself I would not write as long tonight. I must br fresh and allert for tomorrow. Decisions still have to be made. I must prepair for bed. In the meantime think on these things. if you are young. Stay youthful, vital and alive. Grow in every way. never take down for the nay sayers. They are there to spread you like hot butter. They will distroy you, and your potential. Woman stand by your Man. Hes your gift, your lord. Oh yes. Your lord,the head of your life. That is what LACEY was to me while alive. now I'm lone. But baby, I'm alive and well. Still a fighter. I stand for You. Hang on in there, you are covered. Ido love you. I'll be back(**)

Family Reunion 2013

How sweet it is. If you are a writer it is a good thing to b able to write, and to write what you think or feel.  Sometimes that is not always a good thing, but its important to a writer. Those of you who do not write somtimes it may be a little hard to adjust to someone as I am. Would you like to be me for just one day? I don't think so. and any way I would not change who I am for anybody else. Like who could I replace my self with? I tell you no one I know, they have issues of their own, and I really could not fit their shoes. I know a lo of beautiful people, they are are right where they need to be as far as I'm concerned. I would not trade them for any thing. S you are well? If you can control the thoughts that come into your mind you have mastered all of you problems,Right? Sorry, that takes a lot of very hard work, can be achieved but not often and not by many people. So hang on in there. Nothing is beyond solving, NOTHING. I'm good, thing wild, crazy thoughts. Just thoughts as I would deem wild. To some of you they may be nothing, who knows? Back to our subject.  If you remember I started this series by talking about teens in trouble, and what they really go through to survive. They are injured in all kinds of ways, by all kinds of people. First their parents, dad, mom, grands, other kin. Peers, so called friends, teachers, administration,staff, business people you name them,you add to the list. The point I'm making is evil will stop at nothing and no one to break you down and cause you to error. A daily happening on this planet. Youth, the very young are targets. I will say the main targets. They are beautiful ,strong, self willed,and determained. They are equipted to do damage. The miss guided energy in them can cause a wind fall of choas in a falling jungle. We're here. The penitential system is  designed to hold and contain people. Not train you per/say,but keep you bound and held for gain. Need to invest? try that system, a big industry. With yes, some government input. It will never go away on this plant, sorry to say that, but its true. They are designed to capture and hold ignorant individuals who have no clue as to the natuer o such  places. Some of the most brillent minds are right there, and I tell you they are making money too right there and spending it right there. Now, you've heard this before, what have you done lately to decrease the likly hood to dispense with the problem? A big question Yes? Little done yes. I have a U tube video coming up next week, about a group a people from the state of California, who have a pision minestry. The organizer was herself in the system, God delivered her and now she goes back into the system to help deliever others. If you can catch that. I have many videos comng up. I'm out somewhere all the time getting information to help someone some where. Our youth need you. The youth betweenthe ages of 12- 19. The most danderous people on the planet! I love them, they are my kind of people. They can be as straight as straight, and crooked as crooked, who cares I do.  If you know how to pray, pray for them, I don't care how they seem to you, you bearly made it yourself. HUm! The beauty of this planet wasted, abandon, kicked up and out of our so call bourgeoisie society. You go up and look down on me, Yeah? You better know it. It happens everyday! I don't care if you ar purple green all over it happens, if you are the so called white. Admit it. be kind, be thoughtful, be loving, you never know who you are going to need on your way down.  May be one of the ones who have learned alnost everything they know in a prision cell. Do you have a loved one there get them out of there!  Next  week the other endangered group, young Men and Women from 20-33. You think not think again. Until then walk with your back straight, your head up and look out you may see me any where. I'm looking for you, I know you need a hug. From anybody from me. I Love you still(**)

I have not communicated with you in a while, just wanted to know everything is  alright. Its a good thing to write again. I've been very busy. I'm busy now, but I just had to say hello. I hope all of you are well. I feel that you are so shape up, and get it going. We are as we say we are. You should know me by now. I feel what I say and say what I feel. Right? Right. And I answer,lol. I do want to have a brief conversation with you, concerning our teens. I'm concerned. It is a level of great danger.  So many have fallen maybe even some of you. That age is just dangerous, Strong,and very heavy on which way is up! They always find a way, but is always the right way? No and Yes. It depends on the teacher. YES TEACHER. Not always the one in the classroom in a educational enviorment. And sometimes yes it is.  The highest scrutiny at all times should be taken and always always applied.  I taught students who knew all kinds of things I did not know. They were street wise. They had been taught very well. They knew stuff I had to learn in order to communicate.  I did want to communicate, that is who I am. I'm a communicator. I want to know what the other person(s) need me to know in order to have a conversation. I still do. I never rate myself above anyone. I live by high standards, I expect a lot from people, I never settle for less than the best I can have. I was taught this way thus I devloped my on throry on resolution and involvement. I can become who you are with the intentions of never changing who I am. What happens? I take on the traits I need to be a better you.  Then I can communicate with you to you,thruogh you, without extracting the basic ingredient of what it takes to make you run. Without stealing who you are. I only add what it takes to refine and redefind the better solution of YOU. Communication unification, preperation, my brand of mateuration, spicification, meticulously sharp,and witty. I feel if I know so should you. My quest is to know all I can know for all that it means,to the person I communicate with.  In other words to know as much as one can possibly know without breaking the law of LOVE. Some things a person should just have for themselves, to keep just that way. Its between you and God.  That is where I stop. and the other person begins.  All knowledge in human kind needs boundaries. Don"t even try to cross into mine, I'll get rid of the whole package.  That is the truth. More about  the teens when we meet again.  I hope that will be the subject. This will always remain I sure do love you, you can count on that(**)laurissiajohnson@att.net

Hello all! I'm excited! There is something going on and you know what? I don't know what it is. I like the unknown because unexplored things tend to excite me into creativity. I really like that.  I try to stay connected, it does not always work,because for some reason the familiar, makes it gusture toward me and stills a large swap of my time. What can I say?  I love adventure, I always will. I always manage to get away in my mind or peacefull take a strool in my ever ever thoughts.  Lately, everybody is busy doing what they do, but every now and then my turn meanders toward he person who is me, and joy fills my desire to get off the main highway in life.  Not enough of us do that.  I associate that to  a power move. I want to know what is beyond me, far flung in the distance I'm unable to see, hear or touch.  There must be people there I need to meet, to touch to to engage in the most elective relationship acquired.  I'd like to meet someone who was not afried to know someone they never knew before and just sit and reach plateaus in junction.  I love people. and all the people I love don't share the same flavor. Thus, as the thing i use to request of my husband died with him. Lets go have breakfast in Arkansas (and all these places, I would just look at at a map.),have lunch in Kansas, and dinner in some western part of Oklahoma. Yeah, it was very limited sometimes, but very emotionaly satisfying, it all pleased me. Not all the time, but most of the time he wanted to do just that. Please me. All the places I would choose would be places where we were complete strangers. That was sometimes hard to do decause we were well known.  He was a man of all seasons, He lived waving ,speaking, talking to and laughing with everybody he met. He was the extreme of me. He was a world travler. In fact we traveled our entire marriage, until he became ill, Then he didn't want to leave  the house for anything but McDonalds and to go to the nice Dr. he would call his physician. Put up with me this week, thank you. I have these moments every now and then, I'm glad you're there to share with me, that means a lot . Even my reader in Russia.  Thank you for reading what I write. The  sentence structure is not always correct nor the spelling,i still am not a typist!. I write and I get so excited I don"t go back and proof read. Yeah, I know, trecher, Yeah, teachernknows better, not teaching right now, just writing. Those of you who have been blessed to have a mate, a husband a wife, please enjoy that. To have someone to walk through life with is  and can be so very fulfilling. Don"t treat that lightly. It means everything.  Those of you getting ready to marry, stay focused on the prize. Make sure that person is your prize,and make it count for all time. and always remember that , that is a person and not a thing.  Someone to be adored, and stroked constantly. It always returns, maybe not the way you presented it, sometimes even better.  Some times a little bit, take the little bit with a smile, ladies, that seems to always fall back on us. But I tell you it will get better, I'm a winess. 51 years of marriage to the same Man.  When it ended it hurt, but it was all good. I'm here I remember every moment, of all the times we had together.  All of them were not good, but I marrried for a life time. There was no abuse, a little crusing every now and then. Sure, we were human, I did know some words, he did too, a pastors son. But hay, It only lasted long enough to get the words out, oh yeah, and it would happen again but not often, jus enough for us to say Hay wait I am still on the planet and I do matter!  Yes Lord, we did matter.  I still have four witnesses to that truth. Therr sons and a daughter. I miss spelled three(3). I do know This computer is not acting right needs to be replaced. hum, But not now. You are priceless. thank you for reading what I write.  For those of you who are philanthropist, continue to follow your money. Make sure that what you give goes to exactly who it was intended for.  Thank you always and forever for sharing with those who cannot help themselves.  Let us pay a little bit more attention to our teens. They are almost just out there. They need us so badly. You do remember don't you? Please never forget what it wsa like to be a teen. One of the most devious ages one can attain.  Everybody likes little children and babies, but who gives a care about somrone who knows as much as you do, or almost as much and will let you know it ? I care. Yes I give a Care! Pray with me for them. Please think about them They need us also, They all need us. Thanks again remember I really do love you, Sure enough!  We'll meet here again(**)