Hello again. it seems so long ago that i touched you. But I'm back again. I hope this writing finds you well. I'm somewhere, soon to find out where. This isa new thought. I really need to talk about this. I've heard so many times, the man up stairs or the man. God I s not A MAN. GOD IS NOT A HE!  YAH IS SPIRIT! YAH IS NOT A SPIRIT! GOD IS SPIRIT!!!: WHO IS GOD:   Who Is God?  Almighty God! The Father of JESUS,(YUASHYAH),THE CHRIST!   YAH! " I am Spirit therefore you must worship me in spirit and in truth."John4:24. We are all part spirit. The part of you ,you cannot see. Nrither can you see GOD, the part of you, you can't see. For anyone to call YAH , The man up stairs,ora man at all is grossly misstated. and believed.  The part of you , you can see is the body. YAH formed the body of man out of the dust of the earth. Not the nuetrients in the soil. only the dust on top. Weren't ment to last, huh? No.  These bodies of ours will die, however the spirit in the body will exit and return to YAH, The Creator to live forever! Your soul onthe other hand is what you choose to think and the life pattern you choose for yourself God AlmightyIs not dust and therefore not a soul. God Is SPIRIT! gOD iS NOT A HE! YAH HAS NO GENDER! GOD Created every creature on this planet, that includes all os us too, man and woman. We are THE DESIRE OF GOD! SO WE ARE WHAT CREATED.  in order for us to procreate, YAH made sure that each two (2) of a kind, as in our case  an X and a Y.  Men interperted THE INSPIRED WORD OF GOD! The men(X), who translated the scripts called God a MAN, A HE.  Remember, God has NEVER Been seen by a man, or that man will die on sight of seeing.  YAH, showed Moses the back side of THE SPIRIT! OR some portion of some portion. Whatever that was Moses had to cover his face because men could not look at him in the face. God said, "I talk to Moses face to face."  Read carefully what the men wrote carefully. Man was and to dominate the earth. This is the Will of The Almighty God! The Great I AM! The CREATOR GOD! God said : I AM NOT A MAN THAT I SHOULD LIE, NOR THE SON OF MAN THAT I SHOULD REPENT. numbers23:19 I hope you have understood what I have written. OUR GOD CREATED EVERYTHING WE SEE AND DON'T SEE. GOD IS NOT A MAN. !! Please don't say that again.  When we leave this life we will be as Yah IS. Not male and not female. Enjoy who  YAH created you to be. Wheather X or Y, it will never exist again. GOD created porcreation to populate the earth so we would never exist alone. Our FELLOWSHIP IS IMPORTANT TO US AND IMPORTANT TO GOD. Let us learn how to walk in God Will for us.  He created you out of The Spirits Desire what and who you are. as always, I love you,still.Grow to be who YAH created in you! (**)

Introducing: I AM Ministries

I back! Well that took a while. Well just as other writers do  I took some down time. But at the end of every week  you would come to mind. Boy how you would come to mind. Now I know I did the wrong thing for not writing, there were so many things I longed to say and I think I said them all to the wrong audience. I'll have to watch that. Its not a good thing. My emotions have been going crazy. I must learn to reface them with a positive profile. VChange my thinking.  Vacate the storm in me until Mr right comes again. Sometimes I feel, I had my chance. I did, big time. When it ended I declared it would never happen again. Surface though it may, there is a void. Enough about me. I know how to put me on the back burner down low.  The last time we talked I gave you some history and background about my experience as a young woman in her 20's.  It was real. It is a hard transitional period. A young person can make all these edge roads and get treated as if they've done nothing at all, because, they've been told you're just getting your feet wet. All lies. They are wet totheir shoulders. I think about Steve Jobs, a young man, committed to forging his way to the top in spite of what people had to say. He made it. He did not get to really enjoy it. He died too young. Why do people do things like that? Cause thers to drive themselves into the early death syndrom. (Others). My key board will not correct when i blog for some reason. so I rewrote the word > I'm, sorry. I do not want to erase everything every time. He was a classic example of what I am saying. Jealous,envious people, continue to destroy Gods intentions for good. I say thisbto appeal to your good reasoning. Some of you are in position right now tomake or break another persons denisty. Will it be a positive thing you do or a destructive and disastrous flip of fate?  So many times we forget the power we have in our hands to do. Do what ever it is we do. If more thought were put into play, who knows Steve Jobs would still be alive and well and able to enjoy what he perfected, all all the capital it garnered.  viewed the work of an engineer, today, total genius! He needs to be encouraged. I tried to do just that. You don't always need to know the persons vitals to say that is wonderful or you need to go on and develope that project. I see you have an outstanding vision. Why is that so hard? Then here is the clincher allow them to do it! Help in every way! First see their vision with them. exploer methods of doing it better inform them, introduce then to the correct people. Not someone out to still the persons vision ond own it. That happens too much. It happened in our etnic background too much! The telephone, for an example, Bell? ding ding dong.NO! I mention things such as these because i know someone out there is reading what I write and can help.  For some reason I know you will. Thereis even someone who needs help, who is stressd to the max and knows not how to ask for Help! Young and gifted, tried and ignored, because you are who you Are. If there is one, Please do not die before your time. There is help available. There is someone you can go to and ask for a hand up. Not to say, you need a thing, but everyone of us needs someone. That someone special.  You see readers they really don't know what the problem is. They spend money to make money and buy pleasure to satify, and satisfaction never comes. No one ever really shared the up and down patr of Who they Are.(part). Their accomplishments get tossed aside and they become lost in their own dreams, and forget the things them tick. It seems no one really cares. And desease and diaster become real in their lives until its too late. (Steve Jobs). We reall don't need any more of that kind of waste. I hope you agree and find the nearest person I just describe and help them. I wish  I could help. If I knew some one as that. Let us really learn to look at people as oue Heavenly Father does. Stop pushing things up under the rug when it comes to people. Our most express and Most delicate Gift of all PEOPLE!  Until next time, remember I sure do love you. Yhank you for taking the time to read what I have to say.(Thank). You are most important to me, believe me(**)

Thought I wound't come back didn't you? you should have known better.  If you are a writer you know how we are.  The are down times, or you could call it lag time. We just hang out in our little spots on this planet. and think about it. For me its think and pray about it. That is exactly what I was committed to do.  If you ever need a friend its when you'er away. I'm a friend to an away friend. That friend had my full attention. I'm back. I hope all of you are well. it feels as if you are, maybe 2 or maybe 3, with a little something something. You're going to be wonderful,for real. On our last journey we closed out our discussions on the very young all the way to the teens. I tell you I can never close them comletely out, there is where evil lurks to the extreme! So look for it, every now and then.  Tonignt we I will begin my discussion on the age group between 20 and 35. The most often stut - out ones.  In many cases the stut down ones. I experienced it. I stated before I was married at the age of 18. Really a fresh 18. birthday in October, married in June of the next year. Sort of in the middle. I encountered all kinds of negtive vibrations. too many. one, I married the most popular minister in our area. He was the sought after one. all kinds of ways. any how, I grew up in this little place. sort of a boom town. Ponca City, Ok. Hum,so long ago.I'll never for get it. The community felt I was too young for the responsibility I had. The day I married I became a pastors wife. Not just his wife, but a person who was supose to be looked up to, respected, and all of that. I was thought to b too young. I had completed a year of college. I tell you I was sharp ready for the next event. In stead, those members tried to cancel my person. I never took down. When they came at me one way I would swich to a different channel. I am thankful that my heavenly Father guided me and I listened and over came that period in my life. It continued. at another church where my husband pastored. I was in my 20's. I was determined to stand and stand ,I did. I've always possessed leadedship qualities. I knew it. It was a daily exercise in my life. My husband needed me to be who I was. I suppored him. Ipoured myself into him. I became his best friend, his dependable buddy, his advocate,and his main squeez. I intended to stay that that way. With the help of the Lord I did, until the day he died. I was his help meet. I met every demon he didn"t have time for. I made the time to pray and stand up for what he believed, for what we inconcert believed. I was a fighter. hr knew it, Istill am. I said all of that not to brag about who I am, but to say, that is what it takes. People who succeed in life, are fighters in life for the live of them. I've watched our society through the years demean the wisdom of its young. It is so strong.  Because they are young, so they thing, young adults can't or don't know how to make right decisions. That is not the truth! It is a trick by the evil one to slow the forward progress of Man. The lord of this planet! The keepers of the earth. The dressers of the vineyard, MAN!  I promised myself I would not write as long tonight. I must br fresh and allert for tomorrow. Decisions still have to be made. I must prepair for bed. In the meantime think on these things. if you are young. Stay youthful, vital and alive. Grow in every way. never take down for the nay sayers. They are there to spread you like hot butter. They will distroy you, and your potential. Woman stand by your Man. Hes your gift, your lord. Oh yes. Your lord,the head of your life. That is what LACEY was to me while alive. now I'm lone. But baby, I'm alive and well. Still a fighter. I stand for You. Hang on in there, you are covered. Ido love you. I'll be back(**)

Family Reunion 2013

How sweet it is. If you are a writer it is a good thing to b able to write, and to write what you think or feel.  Sometimes that is not always a good thing, but its important to a writer. Those of you who do not write somtimes it may be a little hard to adjust to someone as I am. Would you like to be me for just one day? I don't think so. and any way I would not change who I am for anybody else. Like who could I replace my self with? I tell you no one I know, they have issues of their own, and I really could not fit their shoes. I know a lo of beautiful people, they are are right where they need to be as far as I'm concerned. I would not trade them for any thing. S you are well? If you can control the thoughts that come into your mind you have mastered all of you problems,Right? Sorry, that takes a lot of very hard work, can be achieved but not often and not by many people. So hang on in there. Nothing is beyond solving, NOTHING. I'm good, thing wild, crazy thoughts. Just thoughts as I would deem wild. To some of you they may be nothing, who knows? Back to our subject.  If you remember I started this series by talking about teens in trouble, and what they really go through to survive. They are injured in all kinds of ways, by all kinds of people. First their parents, dad, mom, grands, other kin. Peers, so called friends, teachers, administration,staff, business people you name them,you add to the list. The point I'm making is evil will stop at nothing and no one to break you down and cause you to error. A daily happening on this planet. Youth, the very young are targets. I will say the main targets. They are beautiful ,strong, self willed,and determained. They are equipted to do damage. The miss guided energy in them can cause a wind fall of choas in a falling jungle. We're here. The penitential system is  designed to hold and contain people. Not train you per/say,but keep you bound and held for gain. Need to invest? try that system, a big industry. With yes, some government input. It will never go away on this plant, sorry to say that, but its true. They are designed to capture and hold ignorant individuals who have no clue as to the natuer o such  places. Some of the most brillent minds are right there, and I tell you they are making money too right there and spending it right there. Now, you've heard this before, what have you done lately to decrease the likly hood to dispense with the problem? A big question Yes? Little done yes. I have a U tube video coming up next week, about a group a people from the state of California, who have a pision minestry. The organizer was herself in the system, God delivered her and now she goes back into the system to help deliever others. If you can catch that. I have many videos comng up. I'm out somewhere all the time getting information to help someone some where. Our youth need you. The youth betweenthe ages of 12- 19. The most danderous people on the planet! I love them, they are my kind of people. They can be as straight as straight, and crooked as crooked, who cares I do.  If you know how to pray, pray for them, I don't care how they seem to you, you bearly made it yourself. HUm! The beauty of this planet wasted, abandon, kicked up and out of our so call bourgeoisie society. You go up and look down on me, Yeah? You better know it. It happens everyday! I don't care if you ar purple green all over it happens, if you are the so called white. Admit it. be kind, be thoughtful, be loving, you never know who you are going to need on your way down.  May be one of the ones who have learned alnost everything they know in a prision cell. Do you have a loved one there get them out of there!  Next  week the other endangered group, young Men and Women from 20-33. You think not think again. Until then walk with your back straight, your head up and look out you may see me any where. I'm looking for you, I know you need a hug. From anybody from me. I Love you still(**)

I have not communicated with you in a while, just wanted to know everything is  alright. Its a good thing to write again. I've been very busy. I'm busy now, but I just had to say hello. I hope all of you are well. I feel that you are so shape up, and get it going. We are as we say we are. You should know me by now. I feel what I say and say what I feel. Right? Right. And I answer,lol. I do want to have a brief conversation with you, concerning our teens. I'm concerned. It is a level of great danger.  So many have fallen maybe even some of you. That age is just dangerous, Strong,and very heavy on which way is up! They always find a way, but is always the right way? No and Yes. It depends on the teacher. YES TEACHER. Not always the one in the classroom in a educational enviorment. And sometimes yes it is.  The highest scrutiny at all times should be taken and always always applied.  I taught students who knew all kinds of things I did not know. They were street wise. They had been taught very well. They knew stuff I had to learn in order to communicate.  I did want to communicate, that is who I am. I'm a communicator. I want to know what the other person(s) need me to know in order to have a conversation. I still do. I never rate myself above anyone. I live by high standards, I expect a lot from people, I never settle for less than the best I can have. I was taught this way thus I devloped my on throry on resolution and involvement. I can become who you are with the intentions of never changing who I am. What happens? I take on the traits I need to be a better you.  Then I can communicate with you to you,thruogh you, without extracting the basic ingredient of what it takes to make you run. Without stealing who you are. I only add what it takes to refine and redefind the better solution of YOU. Communication unification, preperation, my brand of mateuration, spicification, meticulously sharp,and witty. I feel if I know so should you. My quest is to know all I can know for all that it means,to the person I communicate with.  In other words to know as much as one can possibly know without breaking the law of LOVE. Some things a person should just have for themselves, to keep just that way. Its between you and God.  That is where I stop. and the other person begins.  All knowledge in human kind needs boundaries. Don"t even try to cross into mine, I'll get rid of the whole package.  That is the truth. More about  the teens when we meet again.  I hope that will be the subject. This will always remain I sure do love you, you can count on that(**)laurissiajohnson@att.net

Hello all! I'm excited! There is something going on and you know what? I don't know what it is. I like the unknown because unexplored things tend to excite me into creativity. I really like that.  I try to stay connected, it does not always work,because for some reason the familiar, makes it gusture toward me and stills a large swap of my time. What can I say?  I love adventure, I always will. I always manage to get away in my mind or peacefull take a strool in my ever ever thoughts.  Lately, everybody is busy doing what they do, but every now and then my turn meanders toward he person who is me, and joy fills my desire to get off the main highway in life.  Not enough of us do that.  I associate that to  a power move. I want to know what is beyond me, far flung in the distance I'm unable to see, hear or touch.  There must be people there I need to meet, to touch to to engage in the most elective relationship acquired.  I'd like to meet someone who was not afried to know someone they never knew before and just sit and reach plateaus in junction.  I love people. and all the people I love don't share the same flavor. Thus, as the thing i use to request of my husband died with him. Lets go have breakfast in Arkansas (and all these places, I would just look at at a map.),have lunch in Kansas, and dinner in some western part of Oklahoma. Yeah, it was very limited sometimes, but very emotionaly satisfying, it all pleased me. Not all the time, but most of the time he wanted to do just that. Please me. All the places I would choose would be places where we were complete strangers. That was sometimes hard to do decause we were well known.  He was a man of all seasons, He lived waving ,speaking, talking to and laughing with everybody he met. He was the extreme of me. He was a world travler. In fact we traveled our entire marriage, until he became ill, Then he didn't want to leave  the house for anything but McDonalds and to go to the nice Dr. he would call his physician. Put up with me this week, thank you. I have these moments every now and then, I'm glad you're there to share with me, that means a lot . Even my reader in Russia.  Thank you for reading what I write. The  sentence structure is not always correct nor the spelling,i still am not a typist!. I write and I get so excited I don"t go back and proof read. Yeah, I know, trecher, Yeah, teachernknows better, not teaching right now, just writing. Those of you who have been blessed to have a mate, a husband a wife, please enjoy that. To have someone to walk through life with is  and can be so very fulfilling. Don"t treat that lightly. It means everything.  Those of you getting ready to marry, stay focused on the prize. Make sure that person is your prize,and make it count for all time. and always remember that , that is a person and not a thing.  Someone to be adored, and stroked constantly. It always returns, maybe not the way you presented it, sometimes even better.  Some times a little bit, take the little bit with a smile, ladies, that seems to always fall back on us. But I tell you it will get better, I'm a winess. 51 years of marriage to the same Man.  When it ended it hurt, but it was all good. I'm here I remember every moment, of all the times we had together.  All of them were not good, but I marrried for a life time. There was no abuse, a little crusing every now and then. Sure, we were human, I did know some words, he did too, a pastors son. But hay, It only lasted long enough to get the words out, oh yeah, and it would happen again but not often, jus enough for us to say Hay wait I am still on the planet and I do matter!  Yes Lord, we did matter.  I still have four witnesses to that truth. Therr sons and a daughter. I miss spelled three(3). I do know This computer is not acting right needs to be replaced. hum, But not now. You are priceless. thank you for reading what I write.  For those of you who are philanthropist, continue to follow your money. Make sure that what you give goes to exactly who it was intended for.  Thank you always and forever for sharing with those who cannot help themselves.  Let us pay a little bit more attention to our teens. They are almost just out there. They need us so badly. You do remember don't you? Please never forget what it wsa like to be a teen. One of the most devious ages one can attain.  Everybody likes little children and babies, but who gives a care about somrone who knows as much as you do, or almost as much and will let you know it ? I care. Yes I give a Care! Pray with me for them. Please think about them They need us also, They all need us. Thanks again remember I really do love you, Sure enough!  We'll meet here again(**)

Hello, its good to  know you are there again. you've been on my mind lately. I hope you are well. When you do come to mind I have learned t pray you off, that simply means, I pray until the thought you is not so strong.  I do hope all is well with you.  Back to the drawing board.  of course tonight it will not be as long of a writing.  This is Saturday night again.  I' concerned about something. Our Story Tellers are really engaged upon some derogatory words to describe our females.  Our Story Tellers are the Hip Hop Musicans, (Rappers). I respect them highly.  I want to know what is going on with the Words Bitches and Whores. In a way I found out. I saw some trerrible things that females are say to fellows. it is not good.  I noted the language that was used and I understand a little  better.  How much is a man supose to take?  How much is a young woman supose to give?  I see they really don't  know they have limits.  It kind of goes both ways, because if you presist and and also acknowledge almost every invitation you have then shown the secret to your success in an area. and soon everybody will want a piece of the action.  How much do you have to give in succession without becoming depleated in an area,visa/versa.  How much is one willing to pay to know, that SPECIAL DOES AS SPECIAL IS! Special is not a feeling, special is not a do baby do. SPECIAL IS I'M IN TO YOU!  Usually you is not always the prettiest, or the  most handsome, nor even the one who can pay the most for a service. That Special one always comes with a jelly wrapper intertwinned with LOVE. Love is what makes the difference.  A play on love never stops to amaize me.  It can not be duplicated. It can not be sold, it cannot be traded no not for any thing or an amount. People cannot take the place of any other person no matter how stately of rich. No Stand Ins, even a mask only works for a very short time. Love is very above our heads. That fact shows in everything we do.  Most people usually choose a copy cat to make do for the Real Thing.  This place is so messed up. so upside down.   You know we have not taught the young a thing.  I am finding out why as I live, most of the people living here really don't know enough to teach.  That is why we clammer at each others throats and try to devior and seize every oppointunity to end someone elses progress. Hate, Envy, Greed.  This is what we have taught. My God, what a mess!  This brings me to my last blogg. Students are taught how to cheat, crusify and kill anothers students gifts and dreams, by teachers and parents who desier to see that student excell above all the rest.  They are fed traps for fools.  They are taught how to cheat at being friends.  How to use a friend up, and then put them down. Money and infulence control grades and attempts at success.  A student has to be very gifted and strong to over come the money game.  The child whos parent who has the most money  has the most pull in a school enviorment.  Teachers usually don't have the cash flow the the influence and the knowledge to convert energy into cash flow.  Children can be and are most times can be the most destructive humans on this planet.  They learn fast and are very easy to be influenced by the right source.  Think again if you think not.  It happened in our community. it still does with the cash flow we have, the same thing happens. I was born and  I was told I was a mixed race child. and in our society if any part of you is African the Whloe part of you is African!  I don't have a problem.  I kewn who I was when I was 2.  I'm just saying the problem is wide spred not race bound.  I know, I felt It I lived it.  Talk to the Hand! Most school reunions are just a farce. A display of look at me now! I made it in spite of you!  Few get to say if had not been for you I don't know where I WOULD BE!  I've heard that before, it feels good.  I wish I could have done more.  What have you done lately to swing that pendulum into favor for a child who seems so down and out.  Not always the highest score, but maintains a score. Mantained scores show diligence and perseverance. This child really never received any special attention by professionals, where another did, but their strenght in judgement and attention to details took them to a higher place. I respect thoes Students. They never give up, and make every class reunion. See you next time, Remember , I love you.

A book review with author Brian Jones

Out-of-Body to Hell, pt. 2 of 2

I see you with my heart. I desire you with my thoughts. I wis you well this day and every day.  You know I thought about you Saturday night. for a lot a circumstances in my life right now, I have to choose various other days.  Know this I keep  you in mind always.  So many times, I ponder the thought of  things to do so as not just to jump up and down about what we need to do. I have solutions, and I never sing off with out sharing one or sometimes more.  They are just basic human everyday things to tend to the needs and rights of others.  We can not exist here alone. we need people.  Yes there are times when I just want to go and hide. to put everything and everybody out of my sight. Out of my ears. No, it last such a short time, but honestly those seconds do exist in me, the lover of all people.  I'm one of those ones who puts off Christmas shopping until the 24th of December. I love it, and I do it on purpose, just to be near all those people, wow, what a treat.  Its a time when I get to touch someone who had no intention on touching someone such that I am.LOL. y\You know what? and sometimes I do, I lol.  Bargans,yes, but the best of all is the Christmas feeling I get.  I get to touch people in mass.  One of my greatest desires in life. Crazy huh?  I told you I am crazy.  I'm crazy in love with you. My people, my unseen public.  What a thought.  Do you know how many young people have thoughts such as this? Graffito,  all over every thing. All kinkds of confirurations and all kinds of messsages.  Some of it , most of it is so very beautiful. Of course ther is danger in over kill. mMuch of it is written to send the establishment a message, some, ment to be art an expression, a belief, a destiny, even a way out, of what ever.  do you undersand whereI'm going? No I never did it. Nor would I ever. I'm from another place in time. where we learned how to speak piglatin and cuss you out while  some floks just thought we were so cute with those cute little nothing words.  We knew exactly what we were saying.  If you were slow, too bad, your whole family just got run down. Who am I talking to to night?  You needed to read what I just wrote.  Perhaps you were one of those. I was.  Youth come in all kinds of packaging. This is what out society has taught. The SERVIVAL OF THE FITTEST.  I get so upset with the educational system of rewards.  The teach students to lie and steal.  Some of our greatest minds are lost to the streets becausof their IQ according to a test  written and required by the elite, not genus, money. Power. And so we turn out what is taught to middle of the road.  Most of the society can not read or write. Count .Yes, that is business, sporst, music, building, machanics, science medcine all controlled by the elite.  Money.  Under bridges , how to blow a city up is taught and lesrned, by someone who was expell from school in the 9th grade. Who knew more than the teacher.  You know I'll telling the truth.  One of them may have been you.  Your mamma had a day job, no dad in sight, you usually had no lights in the house to study, and the kids thoght you were weird because you went to the library after school. But still. No one called your name when graduation day came. know any one like that? I have know many. They usually wast out on this planet doning something they usually don't even care any more, what that something is. Look what we have done! It can be corrected.  If it was you, you know a way, share it. Someone somewhere will listen. Not only listen but act on your behalf.  Not on so such just for you ,but for those out there who are are suffering as you did.  This is how we make his world a better place. one person at a time. One day at a time.  We can, we must.  Next time I will share how we make the middle of the roaders, liers and cheats. Hum. I may even define you. Maybe not, because you read what I write.  Until then, I'll keep you in my prayers and  I'll love you with every thought (**)

I'm here and  its not Saturday night.  I'm so blessed you are here. Thank you again. I have started placing my inteviews on my blogg site. I truly hope you enjoy them.  I've done 6 now. there will be another one the first of the week #2 of my friend Dr. Williams.  I've known her for a while, she is a wonderful person.  Well I'm in good shape after this trimatic decision.  I'm still shaking my head.  Oh but I'm also doing the most powerful thing. Watching and praying. praying and watching.  We'll get through this.  I'm not sad, I'm angry. Not at people so much, but at the existing evil the continues to invade my presence on this planet!  I'm done with it!  I've declared all out war on evil!  I'm not just telling you. I have premission to do exactly what I was sent to do.  Some of you may remember, I have told about the fact that at the end of my freshma year in college I. was married. Not because I was pregnant, but because i was so loved and in love, I just could't helpe it. We lived hundreds of miles away from each other. My mother was strict. very much so . I was worse that she, I knew I was supose to wait. well I was 18 and waiting, for this 31 year old man. He got me. Took me home... Now that is enough of that story.  Before the end of his life in 2012. he gave some advice on how to live, I listened. It was lovely.  Not long ago, this year in fact, (2013), I realized I'm free.  Really free for the first time in my life. I went from my mothers home to my husbands home. Now I'm at home.  I desire to travel the world with my message of hope.  I write all the time. Now, search for people, reading  books, people want me to read for interviews an nuonces to probe the minds of people with a message. We are really alike in a wonderful kind of way. I like it. In fact I love it.  I'm a people person. I love love people, I really do. Back to my realization. I want to be free, just for me.  I once thought  I wanted to be attached again but ,no, its too soon. So now my age, I'm blessed, really Blessed. Since my discovery, I'm 18, going on 71. I was 18 when I married. I no nothing about not being married. I want to know. and I do and I'll even learn more. I remember being 18, yes and all the rest. but 18 is special for me. I'm 70. Do't look it  and I did not do it. The gift was given by my Creator YAH. I don't feel like it and I sure do not smeel like it. Older people seem to develope a certain smell. I don't smell, my house does not smell, Thank God.LOL.I do not act my age, never intend to.  My youngest child who is 40, calls me his wild mamma. I am, I'm wild, and in love with who YAH Created me to hang with, you. I hope you love me too.  Its not always easy, but its fun to try. I say what I want, usually. However it is always in regards to the well being of someone else.  People are not to be trampled upon!  Only things at some times.  I still listen to rapp music. really rapp is basicly the for form of the trans message system. It tells a story.  I hear all of these stories, I'm still shaking my head, not to the beat, and most of them are very nice, but I'm shaking my head to the words they are saying. and even the ones they were to hurt to say and that is usually a huh sound. I hear more thand sounds and the music I hear the hurt .  I hear  and feel the pain. The beat is the cover up. The more exquisite the more  intense the drama, the detestation.  I get it after the first two words. I heard one tha started with' I hate you I love you.'  That simply means I hate you because- and it plays through out the song.  The correct term for rappers  are minsterial  (an instrument). Messager, one who delivers, or tells. They usually had beautiful voices, and gifted to do what they did. The ones I've heard so far are very gifted.  I will listen to more.  When I return , you know where I'm going wwith this right back to the daily news in my life, he miss treatment of youth on this planet and where it is going! You know, you said it, let's look for better, and live the same. I love you with the heart of an 18 year old , who knows where she is going. See you ,Love you be safe come back carefully(**)

Rev. Dr. Beverly J. Williams Introduction

Solo Debut

Making it Real with Marsha Johnson

Episode 3 - Theme Song Name

Family Interview Oldest Son

Anniversary

Blog short and heavy.

Well, here I am again. You're wonderful! I like the way you color me. Never find a color for Crazy lol. I would not like it. yes I would. I like'd  to know how crazy you think I am.  Tell  me at my spot on google sometimes.lol.I want to be the good kind, but is there one of thoes? See me tomorrow please, I'll tell you.LOL.  One of my friends ask me who was I in love with, after reading last weeks blog.  Did I say it then? I don"t think so. You Think I'm going to say it now  don't you?  So much for that.  Thank you for taking the time to read what I write.  Writing about what I'm writing about is one of my passions.  I truly love all the children on this planet.  I really desire to touch them ALL.  Maybe one of these days.  I do not ever intend to grow old, and die looking and acting my age.I reay don't do a lot to accomplish that, I should do more, and I will.  God The Creator, Blessed me with perfect genes and chromosomes, just for me. I don" care if you din"t believe you don't believe that. You know what? It is true.  I thank Him everyday.  I'm  thanking Him now.  You have what you say. Say so.  There it is it is yours. You see, "but I am not you."  You have your own private stock, Never envy what someone else has.  What God gave you is  unique, Precious, Beautiful, Expressive Timely.  You are on time, required and needed to keep the  earth, stay on track on its way around the sun.  With you this balance would have never continued and the earth would cause cataclysmic violence in the world of the planets.  You don't believe that either.  That is not good, because it is true.  You were created on purpoes. With fore thought and Perfect intentions.  There is not a copy of you any where. On earth, in the earth or in the heavens.  Ask the scientist who develope such madness. and study anatomy.  Cloning never really pleased them. there was always a missing something. Now what was that? The person for real , the thing for real.  What ever, for real.  You are important. You matter. You are the person that makes the world go around.  That will be so until the end of time.  Even after you cease to be here.  The image of you will remain, to come  again.  That isas  far as I can develope that thought.  I really don't want know  to more.  I know more about it than most people do because I want to.  So I do.  You are here in my thought world now, becouse I needed to draw you in to let you know every child born on the planet has a right to be here. Because God said YES>  Who are we to say and act as if they do not belong.  We do it everyday by ignoring them, and their needs.  Their greastest need ,to be LOVED.  When you love someone you give them you. ALL of YOU.   Now you keep your wits about you, but you give all to see that every need is met in that person.  That will and can happen for each of us, if we yield to  the way things  were designed.  No, thank God we had nothing to do with  the design.  But we have every responsibility to respond  to each person asan  equal,and favorite.  Now what can YOU DO?  The planet will not be a safe place  to live, if evil persist and life becomes a credit card or a chip.  I asked the question before do you have your ticket, your spacious home amoung the planets?  I would be curious to know, how you designed your space.  Oh yes the earth will exist, there will be people here.  But your safey will not be guaranteed.  You will totally be in the hands of evil.  We are on our way right there.  The srtongest pepole on this earth are not the rich and famous.  How be it , there are more rich and unknowns than famous.  You can't do a thing about that either.  But you can, think about what you can do.  You can, and you have the power to change to world,NOW.  Put the pen to the paper how ever you are most comfortable writing . Make a plan.  Not of escape, as many are doing, but for  survival, not just for you but for as many as you can help make this a better place to live in,on what ever.  How can you help a child who thinks and have been told you jut ugly, you stink, you dumb, you'r stupid. you an't ...  How many times have you heard these words, but someon was there to help you pick up the pieces?  Some have no one.  They can't find a soul to help them and they are lost and dying empty.  Never knowing what it was like to hear someone for  real say I love, just because you are you.  Keep on thinking, keep on writing, keep on hoping, that one day, you'll Do It. Dreams do come true. I know, I'm dreaming Now, and this is FOR REAL.  i SURE DO lOVE YOU.  Lower case i Capital Y, That's  what  IT IS ALL ABOUT(**)

Well I'm about to be tired. I completed a lot of house work today got ready and attended a secular consert,(open air), Great music. I attended one last night and one tonight. A first for me, for all time. I smiled ,laughed, yelled, clapped and daced ,at my seat.LOL  I might  add with my pastor and his lady friend. (my 1st child). I had a wonderful time, a little out of the box. I heard a song by India Arie,not long ago, I went wild , an old song, but my first time to hear it. By buddy laughed at me. The title ,'Ready For Love.'  I've really not ever questioned if I were ready. I just thought Iam.  Of course that has been so long ago.  She stated ,that was her conversation with God . Mine to. Because He needs to help get me ready for real.  Oh God  the pain of being in love...  I almost forgot, but I was so young then.  I' have to write a book about being me one of these days.  I've seen some days, and learned from each one of them.  Now how are you? Ready for love? You got Brown skin? Just kidding. I'll answer for you. You are with me, you are blessed, crazy and filled to the brim with charm. YES!  I like that. But I Am Me, I want you to be , I need you to YOU.  Can't do without you. My husband would always tell me "stick with me baby."  I did.  Now  stick with me.  Where you given the privilege of choosing the color of you skin, your culture,your ethos grouping? Were you in command of your economic standing,and social background?  I wasn't. Nor were you. You had nothing to do with it.  That was chosen for you.  Now, what do you do when someone you know  is not where you are in life?  Call them names say they are stupid, dummd and can"t learn,  Lazy and no good because they have not been taught as you were?   How many of these things could you smile about and give a positive answer to? Don't answer that yet.  I worked with people who were professional educators, and everytime they got a chance to get together they talked someones child down.  Prefereably at lunch.  I ate alone  most of the time, or in a full cafeteria.  I never ran students down, they, most of them were already there.  I was not lonely, I knew I was going home.  My safe place to be, where I taught our childern to love everybody, no matter what. They did, I have had everybody in my house. They left, not the same as they entered,and always come back.  No matter where they live they all come back here, in their thirties and fourties.  My former students still find their way to my house they know they are welcomed, and loved.   Can you say the same thing? I hope so.  I, with all my heart  hope you hear what I am trying to tell you.  We need to stop exepecting what we have not demonstrated and what we have not taught.  Enough is enough.  Think of how you, just you can change the world you live in, one step at at a time.I tell you it will cost you nothing.  We  never missed a meal because we  feed someone elses child.  I never tired, of seeing their bright faces, blended with ours. I was never causious about telling them, you are musty, go wash, there is the bathroom ,you know where the towels are. Wash your hands before you eat. Sit down , shut up and listen. Wash your shoes. Put on clean under wear. Wash it the night before you go to bed. Don't marry a crazy person you will likly have crazy children. I said all of that and more to many of them and to all of my students. A child is a child. They are very sensitive, very bendible, impressionable.  You do know that Right?  That is why some people treat them any kind of way.  They want some of them to think you are inferior to me. The evil one is a lier!  I am superior to no one, I am inferior to God Almighty alone.  No created being has the right to dominate me.  I will never give anyone that power.  My mind is fearless and my heart is fixed, on the absolute good of ALL MEN! I will never think less of who God created me to be, for me or for you. I love who God created in you.  Not me but you .We'er all the same ,but yet so very different. You know what, He created us just that way,Diverse, Wonderful, Fruitful, Tastful, BEAUTIFUL.  You are beautiful.  I don't see ugly . I see change,one of a kind ,expressive, character, flow -  What do you see?  Color me faithful, color me true, color me, not you.  Until I meet you here again.  I  sure ~  do~   love ~  YOU(**)

Same place, same station. Its a Wonderful day!  I hope you have enjoyed it.  I am so excited about what is about to happen in my life. what is it?  I really don't know.  However something is happening, for the good.  I hope all is well with you. That makes for easy reading.  Relax, I'm still the same writer, who still can not type.  One of these I'll do it differently.  Some day.  Now here goes.  What is a Slave?  A person who is owned by another person or persons.  A servent, a druge.  Usually counted as nothing, dispensable.  Got money, get you another or some more.  There is a lot on the line here.  And in the end day day will pay off.  Where  do we stand in the scheme of things?  I can tell you where I stand. I view All humans as indispensable.  All creaters born human' are as God Himself.  I don't care about  the circumstance of a persons birth, there needs to be,and there is a means to care for that individual, until they can care for themselves.  I've ststed this before, we tend to look the other way when things are not going well for others.  The very young suffer most of of all.  No matter what country they live in.  The young suffer, and no body seams to care.  What  I've observed  is usually, the people who desert them are the people who have  somehow made it,thruogh giftedness, and more abuse, either ignore,and/or stoop to the same garnishment of hurt  and pain on what  and who they  see ,they have been.  A lot of words to say " misery likes compamy." These people usually know exactly what they are doing.  Very few do not.  I hear so much about children who are straving, right here in the greatest nation in the world.  Resources, on recourses.  No body caring enough to care for some one in the proper way.  You give things to the various charities and they either hord them for themselves of sale them for self gain.  Oh yes it is done.  Usually the people who work for thoes places are poor, and needly, they steal.  There are people who have more than enough and the hord,(steal).  I've seen it, I was shocked and amaized. I observed them going around, asking what size do you wear?  We just got new suit in.  I've seen the floors in rooms just full of things, beautiful things, the workers, of them the professionals(degreed), go in and pick and choose.  I never cease to be amaized at some of the things people do.  I at at a place in my life where I could only observe. Now, I'm going to tell you watch where you give you sustance to.  You know sometimes its best if you are ther to personall give them yourself.  The people who they are intended for never touch them, they never see them.  You wonder why so much pain?  Our people still inflict so much pain on the helpless ones.  The helpless become insightful and fill to the brim with anger.  No one really ever listens to them. Some many killings are caused because of abuse.  If someone is constantly abusing you you would want to think a way to cause the to cease and desist also.  Men and women why of means why don't you take the time, real time,(. not just a photo opt). Go and observe what they are doing with the money you contribute. Really trace your money.  Since that happened , now I know where to give my money and my goods I give away on monthly basis. I'm telling you ,you have no excuse to send it and you never appear.  They don't need to know you are coming. Just Go! Our youngsters are so beat down.  They are being raised by individuals who have never been prented themselves. I've said this befor I'm saying it again.  My Geand-mother uesed to always say  "if you want something done rightdo it your self."  She was right, until I leared how to do it right.  Time can be your enemy or your friend.  Never limit what you can do to help someone else.  Most assuredly  not the youth.  Time is of the essence. We live in a fast  trask society.  What was right just last year will not work now. where have you been lately? Whave you been doing with your time?  Taking care of you. Well you say I don't have time,or Idon't have the money.  Time is money. Money time. look at it both ways.  Some of just etting fat, sitting down look at tv or read books.  Yea, yea you know what goes on but what are you,YOU doing about it? Not a ... thing.  Why?  Because your church just sent a donation to the red cross. So did mine. But I must touch the Youth. We have an adopt a youth in our church ,and what I asked the members to do is have that person shadow you.  This is how we learn. We learn by application and observence.  How can the youth apply what they have not seen demonsteated, except violence and hell interchangeably.  Soon  I will bring my 2 adoptees to my home, for an over night stay. Do I know them that well/ No. But I do know them. I know their parents. Trein parents know me.  I do know how to take risks. I do stay prayed up. I will never stop believe.in the idea that there  is a little good in us all.  Of course there been times I wonder why I take the time to do a thing.  My experince last fall taugth me a great lesson about people.  All kinds of people.  I thought I had met them all until I saw for myself just how low the human race can go. We make slaves of ourselves. We cast rocks at our own lives everytime we ignore the demise of another person. We enslave our good intention and cast peals to the hogs.  I know some of you wanted me to discuss sex again, but slavery in all forms envolve sex.  The baby is here. Now what do we do about  keeping ourselves alive for another generation?  The child is is you. The child is me.  Who fathered it and who gave birth to this someone wants to have and to hold?  We All did.  We all are responsible for happens to another little part of God amoung us. Blue ,purple, indigo, pink, orange,what ever. Cute ,beautiful, handicapped, weak. None of them as ugly as the thought of abandonment. Think  with me, What can you do to to stop the slavery of our children?  There is something.  We are all unique and varied. We have all been children, all of us have suffered some unkind act as as a child we did not deserve. So are we going to continue it?  Never look at a child as a child of color, You just demoted yourself to a frog. Did you choose which one you were born to be?  Let me stop right there. If you did not get it this time I'll do better next time. In the meantime. Keep the fire burning and the logs turning,for we want to light your fire!(**)

Late, but I'm back and still love the thought of you. I hope all of you are well and achieveing your best and highest goal. S- t- r- e- a- c- h ,get even more. I am well. My youngest son and wife came over cooked for me, I ate way too much. I still feel it. So I'm good.  I'm excited about life and living to the full.  I know there is help on the way, now we plan to Win!  I don't like loosing, but living has taught me sometimes it is healthy to lose.  I am learning how to adjust to losing.  But I hate sharing, and somethings I will not share.  Those thing I part with and convince myself, I didn't lose, I let it go.  I'll never stop trying to save lost and dying people. Never!  Young people are my choice and chief aim when it comes to reaching out.  Oh now make no mistake I love all the ages from 0 to 121 years of age. If there is a way to reach out I will find that way and with only a touch, secure my plea of rescue.There is a professor in  Wichita Kansas on the campus of WSU. who completed a study on Ending  Modern Day Slavery. Her name is Karen Countryman-Roswan.  She states :the most important thing to realize is that these youth are victums and survivors- not criminals."  Her study was done on youth from the age of 12-22.  Very good study I may add. It was exhilarating to find someone who agreedwith me about the forms of slavery.  This information was released last month.(May).  We must step up to the plate.  I have even considered returning back to the work place. Still thinking and moving at the same pace.  Let us continue our last conversation. I let you hanging, on purpose. Lol.  You see I needed you to come think with me some more. On loving. Right? Right. Adam was taught to Love by Master  Of Love Himself. God. Adam transfered all of that to the Eve while she was inside him.  When God made her she already knew how to respond to what he needed before he asked .  Sister Mother had it all in her.  She was and did complete  Adam.  The woman is the completion of the man.  For  any one to think other wise generates confusion, hurt, and grueling dismay.  I personally  know people who are homosexual.  Some of my best acquaintances. I love them much.  They are not happy.  They always find somethint to fight about. And do.  We are all just about the same way in some families.  Their fights are different and very sad.  I pray for them always. Some of the most brillent minds get cought up in the deciete of sexualism, not love but sex.  They do love, but I 've noticed it being with great intricacy.  The relationships are complicated and complex.  Here is my tak on this matter.
The male and the female are complete.  The one was made for the other from out of the other.  Their bodies were constructed in completely and diversely exceptional.  From top to bottom.  Unless at birth, as babies are born without brains,lungs and other parts inside out or missing, so goes the genitalia. Missing parts or too many parts.
Some people just can't over come the differenes. They choose what they want to be, from some kind of influence.  Many born perfect, but entrapment keeps them bound to perversion.  Little children, the little ponds of sexual crises, and many never recover from the lack of love in the relationships they were forced into.  What do we do about it we love them all the more. We touch them and reach out to them with open ended love and understanding.  Some many can be loved back to wholeness, if the feeling s are true and untainted by our opinions and mistreatment.  Young males if taugnt early that sagging pants really started in prision to let the culture there know the symbol was  "ready for the taking ,"come and get it.  It didn't start with gangs,but that is where it ended up.  That is another thing.  There have always been gangs.  Gangs for different causes.  All kinds of causes.  David, yes the great King David,  had the badest gang ever. They were called the "Mighty Men."  They were mighty!  Those gangs were men or youth who formed unions together. Friendships that bind and heal.  Each sex has that power to heal each other. So the ladies call theirs clubs,and mens have gangs or lodges,etc.  We hang together for purpose, what ever the purpose, those people can define that purpose.  I've heard both sexual explaination on how they feel higher sex drives with same sex, than opposite sex.  I don't know a thing about it.  However I do know ther were two people in the garden and they were male and female.  That is the perfect union.  If you feel other wise and practise other wise, be fore warned I just stated a truth.  I have no control over any ones sex life or any other controls. I write what I know and say what I  know to be true.  Yes, I hope you come to know the truth someday and practice it.  Number one it can keep you healthy for the duration  of you life. I  desire that most of all.  Now this conversation is and has been about out youth.  I've set a tone for continued  conversation. Get ready, the girl is thinking-- The sex part will be in and out, because that is a huge problem in the young world.  How much did you contribute? Yes I'll ask myself the same question. Until we meet again, allow me to bring a smile on that face(**)

There you are, so glad you could meet with me again. I'm at a new beginning point. As of June 1, 2013, I walk through a new door. It is strange and wonderful. When you do it you will know what I'm talking about. I'm Free. I feel you your inquiary, so let us et started. However, you are here so I know you are well, that pleases me.  On our last meeting I ended by really issueing you a challenge.  All of this conversation is about the Youth of the world. This is what it takes to let you know it did not start with you, and I tell you, it will not end with you.  The most important thing is is you hold a most important piece of the puzzle. A ' Now piece!'  Now , we live, what are we going to do about the whole damn thing?  Blunt and to the point!  By now you know I do not play.  This to me is very serious business.  Before I leak all the way into that heavy mode, let me cotinue our last look in at Love.  I stated before that men and women are afraid to reach out to one another.  A better pharseology would be each other.  You see people either want to forget the woman was stored in the man or most people are ignorant to the fact.  Really, some could care less.  That is why this atrociousevil , Homosexuality. It is evil in intention to bring the most Powerful being to Nothing.  Now that really makes me sad.  If cursing would help, I would right here.  Understanding is what is needed.  I understand what happened.  As I stated I'm sad it happened, so sad.  You see you can not love from the outside, love is on the inside of a person.  Don't you know that is why so mamy young people are hooked on SEX.  They need Love.  Most time you'er  deflated because you've been so hurt looking for Love in all the wrong places.  You're worn out,thinking about the task of looking inside your self.  Yes yourself.  What is in there? Who is in there?  A lot of you if you're honest, know there are too many stowaways  inside of you.  So much so you locke the passages to your mind and throwaway the key.  Thus we live in a world  where love,real love only exist in a very few.  Let me enlighten you.  Just read to look, think,learn.  God created everything.  He knew what He had created, He also knew what the Man would choose.  Oh yes, He KNEW!  You  A Helper.  Some one to help him meet ,or fulfill his desire. His quest. Himself.  WE ALL DESIRE the samethings.  Not at some point, at all points.  We look for, reach for, thirst for,long for LOVE.  Well you say, you already said God walked with  Adam every day inthe cool of the evening, he was with God.  No I did not say that. The Holy Bible said that, I repeated it :)   I did, and they did.  They had RELATIONSHIP!  That same relationship the first Man and the first Woman had.  Deep intmate Relationship.  There is nothing on earth as it is.  You really don't need to touch for that, when its real.  If you've never experienced it I'm sorry. I have.  The relationship between   MEN is so beautiful.  there is almost an indescrible uninting of to like beings in total concert.  Its like a ballet, mass on mass. Do you get it?  Without touching.  I've see it in my  our home.  My sons, strong and intetional lovers.  Pure as pure gets.  I taught them to love.  I taught them to use the inward residence  to insure great satisisfaction.  Not by saying it by demonstrating it.  You practice LOVE, in showing LOVE. Don't be Scare, do it.  Live it. I love loving.  It's my gift to you.  If I can't share it I move on.  What is in me  can not and will be desimated, by curality.  That is what evil did to Man. Perverted the most Beautiful Gift from God.  God HIMSELF, LOVE.  Now, go back.  Eve was in Adam. God removed her, and presented her to the Man.  On First Sight he wanted her.  Who was she, was she a she at first?  She was the Man, with the utrus. Woman. She was a female from beginning.  Out of the Man came himself, in the form of a woman.  Inside out. Flip it out sided in.  Love happens inside.  Sex is to bring competion and expression to a union of the same desire.  If used for any other purpose it is neil and void.  This is what I say.  You can quote me.  I said it is beautiful when men love each other it is as equally beautiful for women.   I taught my daughter how to love,just that way.  She was my true friend.  She still is.  My sons my darlings.  Three loins and a tigress.  Though and loving. I can teach that. Can you try?  You see, it happened once  it should happen all the time. Ladies we were wrought in love. When God removed that portion from Adam He placed it in us. The Heart of God.  The water, the wind, the force of God lies in us.  Yes, in us to share,enough to care to care enough to share.  There  is such resiliency in us ladies, we get down but we know how to come back.  We must never  give into evil and forget who we are and we can and must do to bring back balance to the human race.  MEN, we can do nothing with out you.  Right now that is where it stands.  We are not moving because you are not in PLACE!  I don't care what race and background you are, we need to come together and pull our
youngsters out of Hells kitchen.  They are eating the hellishness of stirfries while we are searching for a pillow to scream our next cry of ecstasy.(your next :) . I am out of that loop so far. I do this.  Are you thinking with me?  OR, are you just reading to get material for your next book or article?  What ever, Think with me.  The world is not lost, as long as we can find our way in it.  With Gods Help, let's do it for the millions of children we lost each and every day to evil. Yes? Think about - Until next time...

My pleasure again to say ,Hello.  I blog once a week on purpose. It makes the week much more exciting to know Saturday, I can sing my song;  You know its "not over until this girl sings." So your week ends with me.  Got cha! Aittle fun is good for what ails ya.  Thank God you are safe and very sound and ready to read.  Adam and God shared a relationship as we realy think of. They were here in all this beauty,and glory,alone with us Ladies tucked so warmly inside the Man.  How wonderful that thought is.  To get God all alone by yourself.  The CREATOR!  My, what a thought.  Adam was with God alone on this place we call a planet.  As I've stated in the past, we do no know how long that lasted.  I tell you it lasted long enough to bring the man to a state of rejection and doubt.  You doubt yourself when you blame someone else for what you have done.  I truly hope you understand what I just said.  Ther is such an intimacy between God and man (in its pural form,no male or female).  That remains, it will never change.  Thank God.  Let me explain just a little.  Think with me, please think with me.  The Hebrew word Nshamah,  (Nesh-aw-maw), coms to mind this word means: A Puff, ie, wind ; Angry or vital Breath. Divine inspiration, or concretely an animal~Blast, that breatheth inspiration, soul spirit.  Mind you , this is a spontaneous forceful action!  GREAT FORCE!  Another term ANGRY WIND!  Think about it A cough just one to clear your lungs has the force of an 80 mile per hour wind speed.Look it up . Ask you doctor.  A Hurricane, when you, yes you caugh!  Believe it.  There is a lot about you, you don't know.  I learn everyday I live.  I will never stop learning,if you do you're DEAD!  What you choose to learn is important.  I want to know about God and me .  Me and God.  This is Nshamah is what happened to Adam when he Became a MAN.  God Blasted the lifeless body of theMAN,with INSPIRATION,SOUL AND SPIRIT, all at once.  It was not a process, it happened! Got cha again.  God and Man were intimate, such as you should be.  I know I am;  But I am not you.  Touch it  know it is.  The woman,our mother Eve, needed someone to share her guilt, her mistake,her loniness.  You know you do feel alone, when things are not as they should be.  Ladies you know how that is. Men consum a lot of our space.  Most of the time we can do nothing about it. Don't feel sad, don't get angry, just know there was a time in history when we dominated the heart and the mind of a MAN.  We still do, but much differently.  The Most powerful MAN that ever lived, that wast not God, submitted to a WOMAN, HIS EQUAL.  Eve was his equal.  She walked with him beside him.  She was POWER!  Don't ever forget that.  It will bless you to smile when all hell is breaking loose in your lives.  And so here we are.  But let me tell you.  Adam and Eve shared alike whith the ALMIGHTY.  When she came on the scene the visits did not stop, they three were together, in the cool of the evening.  They shared one into the other.  You wonder why our world is in the mess it's in?  I don't, I know, we can't stand one another.  We worry about trival occupied space. Territory, so trite such a bummer.  I said they went into one another.  You do not experience real love on the outside. It is all inside,Right? I know I'm right I know how to love.  I got my  BLAST! I know it will last.  Why I WANT IT TO LAST!  HOW ABOUT YOU?  I would never try to answer that one for you, be you man or woman.   Men sometimes are ashamed because they have intimate feelings for another man, and women vise versa.  We are love machines wrought in LOVE.  I am not speaking of love in sexual terms. I'm skeaking about relationship.  We have not learned how to relate to or with each other.  If we had there would be no reason for me to write about  it.  We would be engaged in the doing and hate would not exist.  There was a low scale animosity between the Woman and the Man. in the earth after that experience, sad. It has remained. The first place, the first person, the son of the first family on this planet.  NOW its a planet! Was filled  with animosity,hate, Cain.  We have produced him , them ,and continue to do so, because Love is impertientnt , and cost too much.  Yes, we are there.  Ladies, can we do better?  Yes we can.  We were given The Heart of God.  The brain power of a man and the bodies of the cosmos.  That is the the pull you feel.  The desire to leap for fame!  Fame??  Famous for hold ing  the caress of POWER.  But still remain delicate, desired,pleasing, remembered,lucid, touchable,love to be loved.  YOU ARE FREE TO BE WHO YOU ARE. Let's do it right.  When I ask you  to come and go with me, I'm asking you to think with me, as I think,think YOU.  Ladies, spend more time thinking about who you really  are. Less time thinking about how you're going to 'get over.'  We already 'OVER', Think About IT! Man in their lives, come on, let us do This together again.  I say us, but I'm me, thinking about all of You together.  Together we can work this thing until the sadness BREAKS and emplods!  The precious beings who need us ,You are still struggling to wait for positive results.  That is what this is ALL ABOUT. Please do not forget it!  Good night , Remember I LOVE YOU. There, I said IT. Until next time(**)

Well, here we are again. You and me. I am well,excited renewed,captured with the luxury of a hello again. I hope you got that. When someone wants to see you again or takl to you again yes, and sometimes just breathe on yolu again that is a luxuary for me.  Just because it didn't have to happen.  Most people don't think as I do.  But that is ok. I love you too. I really do. I take what I get. Enough of that.  I did not chech my inbox again, I'm too excited to tell you, you are a wonder. The blame game:  Not my cup of tea. I don"t need to blame anyone. I want to know why?  People who do usually get answers.  Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't.As I stated before the snake will remain a snake.  You know the snske was a beautiful animal,who walked.  They had legs and feet.  Scienctific facts. Look it up. The skins are the only thing they were granted.  Men kill snakes for their skins, the skins are still beautiful. I try to stay away from them, a time or so I've gotten apair of shoes or hand bag,what can I say?  The snake is the arch enemy of the woman.The other name is 'evil'.  This can be found in the Book of Genesis. You see ther was a secret in thr garden the enemy did not have privilege to.  it was hidden, and very undetected.  The woman had a womb (uterus). They were best friends,talking buddies, she never told it that,so it (the snake) coulld not tell the evil one.  A secret in the Garden of Eden,  Thrillng! The woman could conceive children.  What Great news for the whole earth! So great we kill them at at the drop of the sperm!  Hum. Back to the garden. when evil got the news it made the woman the #1 target.  You see evil knew The Christ was in God, however it did not know how He would get here.  His entry point the woman the daughter of mother Eve.  Eve was told the snake would bruse her hill but the "Man", would "bruse its head." If a snake receives a bolw a good one it will kill it,right? Right.  Ladies with in you lies one one the great powers on this planet. Motherhood.  But some of you are screaming I don't want kids!  (kids),I hope not? I hope you don't want children.  Some of you are saying I can't have children!  Ok,  I hear that, and if you still don't want to adopt, help another mother.  You  are a mother,children or not. You are a LOVER. You see evil knew she was a lover, because of her love for her husband, her Man. So, it attacted her ability to function without her help. You see, Adam was her' help meet.' That thing works both ways.  To be present with someone is a conscious act.  When you don't the attention of the other person, you or they are not conscious of your desire or need.  You know that well. How many times have you been ignored?  Just saying.  Whether Adam was there at the thrush hold or on th planet mars, the woman tested the fruit first.  I would ask that you read that with a God centered mind.  At this point that is not important.  Eve , not really feeling any guilt at that point, did what all of us in our state on mind (fallen), would have done.  She said, 'Oh ,Baby this is so good, try some,' yeah, you know and  "the Man did eat".  No thing happened until the Man ate. The Power,the one spoken to, while we were inside him.  Ladied, do you really know what happened?  I'll tell you. (And you men reading also,), Adam reached inside himself,after he heard the tone and the desireous gesture of the one who pleased him more than any thing he had ever known in existance,and he knew everything,in existance.  God allowed the Man to examine and know all that was here. His Love for the woman caused him to eat them to death.  A stateof non existance.  I said he ate them to death." In Adam All Die". Check it out. You are the Wind and the Flow,(water). God made you so.  I said, He made you so. Yes, and he blamed you so. The Man did. .'This woman you gave me'. He blamed her because she caused him to lose his best friend, who walked with him in the cool of the evening everyday.  Or so he thought.  But we know that was not true. We will go into more detail on this next time. I'll share more Until then, Ladies, can we make it Better?  And All The Men said... Think about it.

,If I were close to you ,I would smile,reach for you and ask you to give me a hug.  Lets pretend you moved and I hugged you. I felt that. Why? because I wanted to.  Don't ever forget we, our family does long yo touch the world. We will reach out and touch you.  I'll never stop loving who God created in His Own Image.  I love you, I will in all probability meet you some day,some sooner than others.  Sometimes,alot of time I'm in deep thought,and I forget to smile, but when I look at you, you'll always bring a smile. You see,I'm me not you.  I'm excited about being alive. Living right now ,right here. I know who I am. I usually know where I'm going and my intentions when I get there. I learned a long time ago to always think things through.I'm here and my thoughts are about you.  Yes YOU.  Right there YOU. I noticed the readers are growing. That is good.  But, then is it?  Right now you know I really don't want to spend a lot of time on why,but you need to.  Why? I am heavy on these air waves! I can feel the bounces and the turns. What I say can help you or it can hurt you.  I would never desire anyone hurt or pain,never. I'm not going to tell you not to read what I write I'm simply going to say,be careful for what you read my by danderous to your spiritual life.  I say things that are very spiritual, things that are true. You say how danderous is that? If you read it you are responsible for what you read to do it ,if it right.  I don't care if you don't know me,If I write what is true,it can be lethal.Please cover your selves with prayer.  I've said a enough to emplode a nation,but who really listens to truth any way.  Sometimes it can be a cheap thrill. This is not play time on line,I'm serious.Now, I hope your journey has been a satisifing one.  I'm pleased you took the time once more to meet me right here,right now. The last time we talked, i told you about my 'Sparkle'. She is still sparking.Still learning ,so am I. I'm learning how to execute what I know,to the best of my ability.  You know what and while I'm in the act of doing so, I continue to learn something else about what I know.  Life is so exciting.  I asked you to come along and go with me.  You know I have a feeling ther are men who read these blogs also,fantastic!  I love to men come along. Not try to teach you anything, about us, but youdo need to know what I know about You.  You see I've studied males since I was old enough to remember. The crib? yes. I don't have to study women because I am woman,  However I do spend a lot of time improving  how to be better at who I Be.  To better facilitate and help meet the needs of the males in my life. So I must know me better.  I really don't have a lot of males in my life but the 5 +1 (new great grand -baby), get the royal treatment.Three sons,2grand-sons. They fill my cup right now. So back to the blame game.  Adam blamed the woman, the woman blamed the snake,the snake had no one to blame because ,he got tricked by evil. I just messed up a sentence somewhere on here,but I don't have the time to correct it. I hope you can read it with some understandind.  When we start to blame,we commit treason. Why? Because we are all connected.  Ther should always be a flow between us.  It is natural for us to laugh when others laugh or cry when someone else cries.  Sometimes my laughter is only a smile. Sometimes my tears well up inside,and I can only frawn.  All three playes were cursed.  The snake, eternally.  There will forever exist snakeds. They will never be sble to do you any harm any more, but they will exist in the state you know them as right now prown, on their bellies. That is what evil can do to one as us,if we allow it to be so.  We still blame ,we still carry everything too far.  Respect is lacking in our world.  Can we really claim success in the state we are in? Can we really say,I"ve over come? No!  Not as long as one of us is lacking.  Ladies, I speak to the wind, let us rethink who we are. You are THE WIND, You can and do control the motin in your worlds.  What are you doing with kind of POWER?  Through out the ministry and Life of Jesus Christ, He ministered to WOMEN. HE FREED US TO BE EQUAL AGAIN.  We're there again, but nobody told you that, evidently.  I'm going to allow you to feed off me , my plate. I'm going to pour into you what I poured into my daughter. Yes ,and even more.  There is a way to do this. I'll teach you some of it for free. I need a little help, to stand with and support the stalwarts of our world. Our MEN! Our destiny depends on it. Where do you want to go? How do you think you'er going to get there?  We were provided that way before we arrived on the sean,we wer covered,protected,Hum.look what happened. There is a way to Recover It All.   Can you hang with me?  Lets recover it all. Some of you need it right now, some can wait a while, others I'll teach you how to care. You see I heard you. Until then, know where you are going and how you're giong to get there.   **)

Greetings! What a privilege. Thank you for reading what I write,you're a class act. I am well I hope you are better.  Do you feel a flow right now?  Its blood,sweat and tears. Its me. In a world so filled with excitement,every once and a while we bleed sweat and cry,about the things that seem to play off so very wrong. Im there.But not to worry,not for long.The Father did not build me for for long drug out plays of evil folly,I'm not that kind of toy.  Got it?  That is where we are now.  Did you think that far?  If you did, you are right where you should me with me:)  Ladies, we've come a ways ,but baby we have a long ways to go.Hold your thought on our last meeting.  You know I shared with you I would discuss my daughter later. Later is now.Some of you, maybe a few,are where she was or maybe where she is. This is her birth month.I mean all month. She will be teeated as Royalty this whole month by her mother,who I be.She always been beautiful.Beautiful face, beautiful figure,most women all over the world wished or some think they have. Beautiful inside.A pure joy. my 'Sprakle'. Helania and I always had long discussions about life.  About men in our lives. I had only one(1).  She knew that, that man was her father.Enough for me,and that seem to be the way it is down here, for me.  However I wanted her to have a life of pure delight and joy.  We'd sit in her room in the middlel of her bed and laugh and cry about so many things. Yeah, we were friends like that. We'd sit outside all night long,and talk about this and that. We took long walks at night,just sharing and praying together. From the time she grow to about 12 and through her pre teensand teens we talked about what could happen in certain situations.  How thight things could and sometimes would get out of her control. All through high school,things wonderful. But I always left the door open.  I told her if she ever thought she would get into a bind, to please let me know. I  told her I would take her to the doctor and get birth control for her.  I always wanted her to be safe. She was my 'Sparkle'.  She survived high school. She survived college.She graduated from college in 1996. I praised God for that.  She was PURU.  She was 21 years old.  I always discussed with her how important it was for her to stay that way,for one day you can give all of that to that very Special Man you will meet.  She remaind pure for a long time, until one day she thought she had met that man to find out,,he was a miage.  He did not know who he was or appreciate who she was until it was too late. He was a drug user.  Ladies you know how we want to save the world.  She thought she could safe him. Did not happen, that was 11years ago.  When she was 31 years old. Pure that long.  That is a long time.  But all of that was a result of the time and energy we poured into each 0ther.  My desire for her was to be the Best! She was, she still is. But broken.  She has an 11 year old son one of the apples my eyes.  Beautiful child. She went from a size 6 to a size  God knows what. A milk bottle.  But still beautiful facial and inside.  I can still see where the curves used to be:)  She is still my 'Sparkle'. She can still do what the Huston Symphohy Orchestra wanted her to do, become a diva! She can still proform as you have never witnessed,she is a Diva. I treated her as a princess,dressed her as a Queen.  And still pay her rent,yes indeed!  Why all this?  Look at the attention and the love I poured into my dear one.  Look at the out come, the out come so far.  The presence of evil is everywhere.  In my house in your house. In all of our houses.  We stand by and continue to allow this things to happen.  Well I'm sick and tired of it!  Yes I'm bleeding, i'm sweating and continue to cry for the pain I suffer here every day.  I know you are suffering too.  Yes I know exactly what we need to do. FIGHT! RAISE THE ROOF OF HELL RIGHT HERE ON EARTH!  Ladies, I was pure, wanted to be. You see she was so much older than I was. Had I waited that long I don't know if I would have lasted.  Who is to say? I can't. Wuold you have?  Same world,  time frame almpst the same.  By the way, I never took her to the Dr.,I never purchased a thing a pill or device.  She was on her on in another state. She was fully an adult.  As a woman those of us wh have sons, are obligated to teach them really how to Love, it is what we do best.  Is is what we were created  to do.  Well you say it does not seem thaat way, but honey, it is.  You know our desire is to the man becaues of the Garden psychological upheaval.  The man told God 'this woman you gave me,caused to me to eat.'  Since then ther has been a blame game going on. You know what Jesus The Christ stopped it when He ave His life for all of us. Ladies He liberated you, us.He put and end to what evil started. We are free to BE. Baby I BE.  I know who Iam in Christ. I wish I could sit and just talk,I do that to, I can go on and on. But much like to night I need to stop. Ineed to tell you I have so much more.  I can tell you this we need to change the direction of our desires.  When you find you are getting a little muddy, get up,enquior, get direction and transpose yourself to another place in time. You can still do that. Think about it.  I will do it soon,very soon.  Take a journey with me, to the  top.Game? See you nex time(**)

Hello again: Its good to know we are here together again. I'm excited,I get to share something I've not completely shared before, well not so completely.I'll start with a quote by Bishop T.D.Jakes:"Woman, you need to recognize what God has put in you.When God made you He didn't just decorate the outside.He put some things into your feminine that a man needs more than anything God put on your outside."  That is so very true.Look around ladies ,I along with you have seen some beautiful want-a-bes. Men that look better than a lot of women I've seen.They look like a woman.In their minds they are.That is not my reason for this writing, I don' know if I'll ever need to discuss that.Early this morning we will talk about us(the female population on this planet).You there is a little saying I just love, I've forgotten who said it,but it goes like this,'yes God made the man first,you always make a rough draft first.'  So Man is the rough draft of the Woman.I always smile when I say that in a way I want to maen it,but deep inside I know whowho He designed and created first is the finest and so many times the best. It is not easy to think that let alone say it ,but I say It and I mean I mean it.You see as I stated before the mans body was ours. We were made special,especially for the man.We women were designed with the man in mind.Our reason for existance, to please the man.You know what WE DID!For how ever long that lasted. We pleased him completely.  Many of you are thinking right now, I don't believe that. The Man Did Eat!  Listen he ate knowing he was going to die!  She gave it to him knowing she was going to die! Oh yes she knew.  Ladies you know we know stuff.  Things we never want anybody else know we know. Like we know the man God set up in us,in our heart of hearts. Many women have gone to their grave with secrets never told about their man.What happen to that part of our world?  What happened to the mainstay of who we are.  Emotionally one of the most highly stablelized bings in the world!God built in us the most complicated systems of recovery on the planet.  We have even allowed evil to steal almost all of that too.We give vent to emotions because we have the mechanism to recover.  Have you ever head this? 'girl,I'll be alrigth.' You know,they will be alright.As the system weaves its way through in in this block of manlte we call earth, it continues to reduce every system of strength of man,and the Bible say"that man would grow weaker and wiser." All true. Ladies there is something inside you,that is so desired, a man once ate himself to death,knowing that all men would would die after him. How special is that?  Its more than sex, sex can come from most everything down here with us. We all know that, we live in a now world. Sex is expression. Sex can cause psycholical ,emotionl and physical damage. I can say some folk, because I don't, thank God,I have nothing to brag about , because it is by the Grace of God, I'm who I chose to be,me. Some folk know all about what goes on.  I've heard their stories.  Making is just that making it.  Then what? A woman is a woman. A man is a man.  Until and unless you become so envolved whith tha person,thats all it it making it.  People get hung up on that too much.  Stuff all over the place and no one satisifide. What is that? Evil.  You know why because you will continue to locate a repeat of the samething over and over again until your flag is down and none of your plumbing works! What a waste.Love- No man in the World knows how to Love As we Love.  That is our VERY SPECIAL GIFT!  When you have been loved as a woman realy knows how to love, you don't need NO THING ELSE. Ladies we don't need to groupe around loking in all the wrong places for what we do best.  Plant your feet where you are and really show some LOVE! Yes you are going to get hurt.  You are hurt already,recompose yourself and reach out.Not now, after our discussion, this is a long one.Do you realize how many mothersor women who had children ,who did not teach them how to LOVE?  Maybe you are one of them.  Maybe you were not taught how to love.  No Love produces Hate.  Strong words hugh?  Thruth is like that it is always strong and usually no one wants to hear it.  Well I'm here and I'm saying it.  You know it is truth.Think about. It is getting late here in my world ,and I promised myself I was going to turn a little letter than I have been, but this is something I lve to do.  Share with people who want to know what I think I feel I know.Its always a joy. I've written books,they have been stolen and all other sorted mess.  This is free. I have a lot of this inside me.so much more.  God Is So Very Good to me.  If I could just tell you how Good I, maybe would.Until next time,Try to think a head of me.Try anyway(**)

Hello again.I just read my last blog,I'll try to type a little better this time.lol  I'm a little sad today,there was something I really wanted to do, but could not.I'm ready to move on. So you made it  to the end of this week. Wonderful.The Lord God created everything,then he planted a garden . After He planted the garden,He made a man from the dust of the ground,blew breath in him,and placed him in the garden.  The man had everything he needed or wanted.  He named every thing. God saw he man needed someone,so God presented everything to the man but none of those things pleased the man.God solved the problem. He put the man to sleep took a rib out of the man,and covered it skin. God took the rib and made a nother being,almost as the man.  He left it to the  man to name what He made,Adam called her woman.  He said because she came from him, he was man,Iysh, she would then be woman Ishshah.  You know, one was not dominate,they were equal. All the while the man existed the woman was inside him.  You see he was complete,in himself,alone.  The fact was however he was a lone.  Now he was not alone any more. He had a help meet. As I've said before,to help him meet whatever. How long as the both of them were here, for each other,walking together,all things went well with them.  You know the story about the first person and the first man and wife, to exist here.  I had to set it upso you can follow where I'm headed with this.Both the man and the woman knew one another well. There was never any mention of discard,in the garden except,when the serpent walked in  possessed by evil.  Yes, he walked up in there,but he slithered out,until now. The serpent was very intelligent,he kept Eve entertained. Plus he was good looking, easy to look at. That pleased her. A lot of theologians hold with the idea that Adam was right there doing the time when Eve was being begiled. I do not agree with that. You see the both of them could be where ever they thought, so where ever Adam thought he wanted to be at that time, I believe he was there. On any planet,or any spot in the garden. I believe that he came up after the event,what ever that was,I don't believe it was eatin a piece of fruit. I have my thoughts on what took place. Adam however showed up on the scene very quickly. He was there soon enough for the Eve to show him what she had done and handled so,as she could.  With the presentation Adam ,weakened,soccumb,to the desire of his wife, and did eat.  He became partaker in what ever took place. So what ever happened was internal.  Nothing bounced or glazed over them,it went in them. Where ever Adam was when Eve engaged, it sensitized him,and he came forth. Ladies, here is the man with all this power, enough for the God,the Creator, to desire to come down and meet with him everyday to visit.  He had the power to just think and things happened.  He was to tend the garden.  He did not have to exert  himself  to do it.  He thought it and what ever it was was done. Read the book of Genesis. It does not say what I just said, however it does say he was was the keeper of the garden. But after he did eat God told him because he had done what he did he would have to work,exert himself. Chech it out. The woman could have desired a child and it would have come forth. who knows what we were once capable of in that perfect place.  After a few stupid questions she should have known this was not the serpent she had been hanging out with.  With all the knowledge she had she became lax and lost her gift. Agift of perfect thought and control. Lord, what would that be like? I guess I don't need to know right now I'm writing.So what ever it was it happened.  The man on the other hand could have been in complete control if he had, had the sense to ask one question, what are you doing here with my wife?  Both of their thinking was off because they were perfect in thought and should have known evil possessed the serpent.Sisters how many times does it take for us to realize the garden experience?  We were placed here on purpose. our purpose to help the man, equally share what ever it is, he is. If he is we are.  It is still that way. But with a twist, our desire is to the man. You see where we messed up? Our Mother Eve?  Our role was changed when we did what ever that was we did.(Got my idea.).We are still causing them ,the man to  eat.  To see what is not in their best intrest. to feel what they they don't understand, to tast what is not in their buds.  Now how do we do that?  By committing the same mess that Mother Eve did.  We don't think, we just  feel. We feel like hurt for hurt,bust down for bust down. Flirt for flirt.  We were made special,for something so very special. to elevate that man until he does not realize his elevation from the dome that encircles the earth,apart from himself. Impossible you think. No, possible. What more,how high can he go without you?  Stop feeling it,lets think it. Feelings get us into trouble, causes us to do things we don"t need to do to survive. I have more so much more I need to share.  The man is the way is , becaues we have left him to do what we do,feel. More next time,oh so much more.  You think you don't want to hear it see it read it. Wait and see...Good nite,later-

Hi,It is my pleasurue to think again with you.Back to my established time again,Saturday night,oh its Sunday again,well.My daughter and I sing this song By the Hawkins,called' Jesus is the way'. We both love that part that says,"I will open up my heart to everyone I see."That is a lot of opening,(lol),however we both still do it. We love who we see,you.God made us who we are,all of us.I'm still amaized at the fact we are so very much alike.Not totally,in part, that is a enough for me.You see I really like who I see in you most of the time,sometimes I can't stand the sight of some,Hum? Just thinking.As always,I hope you are Well,and ready for my point of view. Sometimes its yours and you just could not say it Well I can. I've done it for as long as I can remember,how about 9 momths,in a play pin. I felt as if I were so abused,I could not join in the fun activities of the adults.  Did you know that the youth of the world can remember when they were that young and younger? And yet pepole close their eyes to the fact that they know about what you justdid. You know what that was.They saw you do it,and more than less they repeat what they saw. Think about it.  Young boys in jails that house men,Think  about it. Young children in crack houses and houses of ill repute. That where they live,and have no other choice. Think about it.I don't care for movies that air too much sbout the abuse of the young, I see it in living color all the time. I do what I can to change the atmosphere,for the young who cannot help themselves,without a put down on the parenting skills of the one who they must depend on,for real.How do you reach out to the lost and dyin in your sight.(I love everyone I see.) We forget love is a verb an action word.If you can't act you can't love,right? Don't answer, think about it. Am I off the subject of slavery? Not by a long shot!  We look at it daily, and pass right on by,because you think that the way we are doing things now adays. Yes it is.moster, the way it is.Not the way it supose to be or could be, because you see you, you have the same spirit influencing you too. Remember ther are only two.Until or unless you seek a way to change what you know is wrong you are a Slave Master too.  A simple thing goes a long way with someone who has nothing. A look a smile,a touch,a hello,can be priceless. I resuse to ride an elevator without speaking to person I'm with.  I refuse to sit beside a person Ican't  speak to or sime at. Who do we think we are?  Think about it. From the youngest to the oldest.  Everybody is important.  We want to go in and remove children from the homes where they live,and the same pepole you remove them from have other children and do the same thing oner again. Now who needs help? All these children usually are left in disfunctional family situations.  They become a meal ticket or ,lottery ticket or porn victims. You name, yes just go right ahead. Now think about.  How much do we all contribute to slavery? Because we have to watch our own backs. Do our ow thing to go up in in our own world.  The youth languish,in lie in dung wased communities with cheap answers for their survival.A tower of a different kind, huh?  We all live in this place, I just showed you where you possiblely stay.  What level is this?  Somewhere in the middle. Don't you think?  It's all good when I write about the very rich and the very poor. If the truth be most of the world is in the middle.  We do the most dammage, because we know better. We lost our minds as did Adam, over a bite of something beautiful and for get about the pain it took to gain that step you just took,to look at the top of your mountain.  We will learn how to to care one of these old days.  How much life will be left in you to give some youngster a break through?  Don't tell me about color,Don't tell me about gender . You see when my daughter and I look at you we only see a gift sent to to love and enjoy. A gift to care for, to minister to, to caress. What are we going to do about the young male s in the world who don't know how to become a man for real? I move fast, I already gave you a lot to think about for the now. Next time we will talk about male talk. Ladies be ready to move with me. My talk will be about us YOU. It won't be a smooth ride.  Until then, I'll be loving what I think I see in You (**).